The East Indian Cannabis sativa, Linn.

Nat. order , Cannabineæ.

Common names , Hashish, or Blang, or Ganja, or Birmingi (The best variety is that grawn in India at an elevation of 6 to 10, 000 feet).

Preparation , Tincture of the young leaves and twigs.

Authorities.

1 , Provings, published by the American Provers' Union, Philadelphia, 1839, obtained by Drs. Cowley. Coxe, Jr., Dubs, Musgrave, Neidhard, Pfeifer, Schaw, and Wolfe, from the tincture, 1st and 3d dec. dil. (no daybooks nor references to individuals furnished); 2 , proving of W. A. D. Pierce with 3 grains of "Squire's" extract, reported by Dr. Gardiner, Am. Hom. Rev., 3, 411 (and republished in Am. J. of Hom. M. M., New Series, 1, 11); 3 , G. M. Pease, M.D., N. E. Med. Gaz., 1, 204, experiments on self and some thirty friends, including two ladies, with 6 to 56 grains of extract; 4 , Lembke, Z. f. Hom. Kl., 4, 155, proving with 15 to 50 drops of the tincture; 5 , Norton's provings, B. J. of Hom., 17, 465, 15 drops of tincture; 6 , Dr. J. S. Linsley (of New York), provings on three persons, MSS.; 7 , symptoms from Mure, Pathogénésie Brésilienne; 8 , E. W. Berridge (seven provings), Hahn. Month., 3, 461, proving with 60 minims of tincture; 9 , ibid., 1 dr., with 1 dr. spts. ammon. aromat .; 10 , ibid., 5 grains of extract; 11 , ibid., 1 dr. of tincture; 12 , ibid., 1 dr. and 10 minims; 13 , ibid., 1 and 2 drs. of tincture; 14 , ibid., 1 dr. of tincture; 15 , E. W. Berridge, M.D., M. Hom. Rev., 13, 726, proving with 2 grains of extract; 16 , omitted; 17 , effects of Hashish, from "Hashish-eater;" detailed extracts from this work are given, and also the very clear and concise notes of Dr. P. P. Wells, in Am. Hom. Rev., vol. 3, in order to exhibit the prominent features of the ever-varying effects of the drug; 18 , Bayard Taylor, extracted from the monograph of the American Provers' Union; 19 , Dr. Daditi, effects of 1 1/2 grains of extract, repeated in half an hour, N. Am. J. of Hom., 14, 136; 20 , Heinrich, experiments with 10 grains of "Birmingi" (see Z. f. Ver. Oest., 2, 306); 21 , Bigler, Z. f. Hom. Kl., 1, 116, general statement of effects; 22 , Hirschel's Archiv, 2, 70, effects of 4 grains; 23 , All. Hom. Zeit., 49, 88 (Med. Times, 1854), effects of 20 to 30 drops of tincture; 24 , Sonnenberg, Prag. Med. Monats, general statement; 25 , M. Muquet, L'Art Méd., 38, 308, general statement; 26 , Urquhart, in "Pillars of Hercules," N. Am. J. of Hom., 10, 343, effects of preparation called "Majorim" (prepared with spices); 27 , Carl Bower, Am. Druggists' Circular (B. J. of hom., 22, 514), effects of 5 grains; 28 , Th. Gautier, effects, quoted in L. and Ed. M. J., 5, 695; 29 , O'Shaughnessey, general statement, L. and E. M. J., 1, 57, also effects on Hindoos, quoted by Christison, Inaug. Dis.; 30 , Editor of L. and E. M. J., effects on himself; 31 , Williams, L. and E. M. J., 3, 949, general statement; 32 , Perry, L. and E. M. J., 3, 949, effects on self and others; 33 , Christison, Inaug. Dis. (L. and E. M. J., 13, 26), effects on self, 1 to 4 grains; 34 , ibid., effects of 2 grains on a friend; 35 , ibid., effects of 3 grains; 36 , ibid., effects of small doses of tincture on a young lady; 37 , on a porter, L. and E. M. J., 13, 26, effects of 1 grain in chronic asthma; 38 , Dr. J. Gardner, L. and E. M. J., 14, 270, effects of 3 grains of extract on three men; 39 , Polli, N. Y. J. of Hom., 2, 362, from Trans. of St. Andrew's Med. Grad.; 40 , Dawameski, ibid., effects of 15 grains of extract; 41 , Dr. S. A. Jones. N. Y. J. of Hom., 2, 368, effects of 10 grains; 42 , Olearius, transferred from Hahnemann's résumé of Cannabis sat.; 43 , proving of W. A. D. Pierce with the 30th, Am. J. of Hom. M. M., N. S. 1, 51; 44 , ibid., provings, with 1, 2, and 3 grains of Squire's extract; 45 , ibid., proving with the 5000th of Fincke.

MIND

Emotional.
Excitement, 23.
Very excited; he began dancing about the room; frequently laughing; talked nonsense, but could not stop without an effort of the will, which he did not care to make, 8.
Easily excited and irritated, in the afternoon, 1.
He shouts, leaps into the air, and claps his hands for joy, 17.
He sings, and extemporizes both words and music, 17.
On becoming conscious, he finds himself dancing, laughing, and singing before a looking-glass, 1.
Incoherent talking, 1.
Tendency to blasphemy, 1.
Every now and then speaks uncontrollably loud, and then corrects himself (after three hours), 5. [10.]
While visiting patients, have great difficulty to refrain from saying or doing unusual things, 5.
Had a distinct sensation that he must keep himself sober till he got to bed, otherwise he might do something foolish, 8.
Accents the last syllable in all his words, and laughs immoderately, 1.
Quickness of ideas and pleasant sensations, 30.
Constant succession of new ideas, each one of which was almost instantly forgotten, 33.
Rapid succession of unassociated ideas, and impossibility to follow a train of thought (after one hour), 33.
The flow of ideas was very rapid; though early, it seemed to him that it was very late in the day; the fantasies continued through the night and prevented sleep, 20.
His mind is filled with ridiculous speculative ideas, 1.
Fixed ideas, 1.
Thoughts followed one another through my head in most rapid succession; they were very vivid, but were forgotten immediately, at their very beginning, 24. [20.]
constantly theorizing, 1.
Falls constantly into reveries, 1.
Delightful reveries came over him, 33.
He seemed to have the one idea that he should die and soon be dissected, 20.
He seemed possessed with the idea that the did not know whether he himself existed, or whether men generally existed, or for what purpose he existed, 20.
He became possessed with the idea that he was about to die, from which he cried out, "I am dying; I shall be carried to my death-chamber," 20.
The idea that he must die returned several times, and seemed to be particularly connected with the sinking and disappearance of the pulse, 20.
Called the nurse, "for he was about to die" (after one hour), 37.
When in bed, he knew where he was, and yet did not; imagined he was at home, and could hear all the usual sounds; by a strong effort he could recollect the truth, then again relapsed (after one hour), 11.
Looks under beds and tables, unlocks and relocks doors, for he fancies he hears strange noises, and that thieves are in the house, 1. [30.]
When his friends went out of the room, he thought they had left him to his fate, and wrote "cowards" in his notes, 8.
Imagines men are bribed to kill him, 1.
He thinks he can fly through the air like the birds, 17.
Said "he had been transported to heaven," and his language, usually commonplace, became quite enthusiastic (after one hour), 37.
All around and within seems to be a great mystery, and is terrifying, 17.
Despair, and fear of being eternally lost. On hearing the name of God, he cried, "Stop! that name is terrible to me; I cannot bear it. I am dying." Now demoniac shapes clutched at him from the darkness, cloaked from head to foot in inky palls, glaring at him with fiery eyes from beneath their cowls. He seemed to be walking in a vast arena, encircled by tremendous walls. The stars seemed to look upon him with pitying human aspect, and to bewail his condition, 17.
The sun seemed reeling from his place, and the clouds danced around him like a chorus, 17.
"I could trace the circulation of the blood along each inch of it progress. I knew when every valve opened and shut. The beating of my heat was so clearly audible that I wondered it was not heard by others," 17.
Violent ecstasies of pleasure or agonies of terror and pain are constantly followed by more gentle and quiet forms of delirious excitement or hallucination, 17.
He seems possessed of a dual existence, one of which from a height watches the other, while it passes through the various phases of the Hashish delirium, 17. [40.]
Had a feeling of duality. One of his minds would be thinking of something, while the other would laugh at it. Quick transition of the ideas of one mind to the other, 3.
Felt as if he was a third person, looking at himself and his friend (after one hour), 11.
The soul seemed to be separated from the body, and to look down upon it, and view all the motions of the vital processes, and to be able to pass and repass through the solid walls of the room, and to view the landscape beyond, 17.
Extreme apparent protraction of time (second day), 33.
Extreme exaggerations of the duration of time and extent of space-a few second seem ages-the utterance of a word seems as long as a whole drama, and a few rods are a distance which can never be passed, it is so great. The room expands, and those around the centre-table near recede to vast distances, and the ceiling is raised, and he is in a vast hall, 17.
When his friends had gone, he went into the bedroom; stood in a reverie, which seemed to last three or four hours, looking through the half opened door into the sitting-room. The sitting-room seemed to be of an immense depth below him (it was really on the same floor), 8.
Attention principally occupied by an hallucination that time was indefinitely prolonged . Seemed to himself to have sat there for hours, and when he tried to think why he did so, nearly lost control over his reason, and a rapid whirl of confused and irrelevant thoughts prevented his fixing attention on any one point for a moment, and it was only the effort of checking himself when falling which recalled him to himself, and then he suddenly recollected "

Cannabis Indica " but when did he take it? Surely it was yesterday, last week, days ago. On summoning his servant, it seemed a few weeks before he came, 15.

His calculation of the time he enjoyed the dreams was about three hundred years, the fact being that only a quarter of an hour had elapsed, 28.
When writing these notes, time seemed prolonged; he seemed to dream between each stroke of the pencil, 8.
His friends seemed gone out of the room a long time, 8. [50.]
Among the first effects was noticed that the letter or number which had just been written seemed like something that had long since been accomplished, 24.
Minutes seem to be days, 19.
The length of time occupied in urinating seemed days instead of seconds (after four hours). 3.
Only ten minutes had elapsed, and he thought at least hours had gone by, 3.
Only ten minutes had now elapsed, but it seemed to him to be two hours, His sensations were exalted and magnified; his pulse felt to him to be stronger; ideas flowed more rapidly; the pictures on the wall seemed larger than reality, 8.
He could count his pulse well; it did not seem to him to be beating slowly, though time seemed prolonged, 8.
A friend who was in the same room seemed a long way off (after one hour), 11.
Strange feeling of isolation from all around him, with great sense of loneliness, though surrounded by his friends, 17.
He imagines that he is possessed of infinite knowledge and power of vision, and then that he is Christ come to restore the world to perfect peace, 17.
He believes there is creative power in his own word, and that he has only to speak, and it will be done, 17. [60.]
He believes he is Daniel Webster, and omnipotent in argumentative eloquence, 17.
Then he possesses the wealth of the world, and with a benevolence equal to his wealth, showers riches on all the needy around him, 17.
It seemed as though I was transparent; the fire in the grate seemed to shine through me, and to warm the marrow of the bones. I felt the blood course in my veins, and everything within me trembled with the most extreme pleasure, 24.
His body seemed to him to become transparent, and he imagined he saw within his breast the hashish he had eaten in the form of an emerald, from which issued millions of little sparks, 28.
Imagines he is gradually swelling, his body becoming larger and larger, 1.
Hallucinations which lead the patient to imagine that he is on horseback, is hunting, that he sees blue water, that he is swimming, or that he is captain of a vessel, that he is travelling, that he has no weight, 25.
Illusion that he was a , through which a stream of hot water was playing, and threatening his friend with a wetting, 41.
Illusion that he was an inkstand, and that, as he lay on the bed, the ink might spill over the white counterpane. In the person of an inkstand he opened and shut his brass cover, - it hat a hinge, - shook himself, and both saw and felt the ink splash against his glass sides, and, angry at his friends' incredulity, turned with his face towards the wall, and would not speak a word, 41.
He seems to be the subject of the strangest transformations; now he is a huge saw, and darts up and down, while planks fly off on either side of him in utter completeness; and then he is a bottle of soda-water, running to and fro; then a huge hippopotamus; the a giraffe, 17.
He seems to himself to be transformed into a vegetable existence, as a huge fern, and to be surrounded by clouds of music and perfume, 17. [70.]
He laughs immoderately and involuntarily at the impression that his leg was a tin case filled with stair-rods, which he hears rattle as he walks. Then suddenly the other leg seems to extend its length till he is raised some hundreds of feet into the air, and on this he is compelled to hop as he is walking with his friend, 17.
His eyelashes became indefinitely prolonged, and began to roll as gold threads upon small ivory wheels, which revolved with great velocity, 28.
His voice seems strange, as if not his own, 17.
All impressions on the senses are exceedingly exaggerated, 17.
It seemed to him as though he was upon the ridge of a mountain, that he must climb a steep ascent over the naked rock to the top of the mountain, 20.
He imagines, while walking with his friend by a small stream, that it is the Nile, and he the traveller Bruce, 17.
He thought he was in Mr. C.'s room, and recognized the pictures as belonging to him, though they were really Mr. R.'s, in whose room he was, 8.
The walls of the room are suddenly covered with dancing satyrs, and mandarins nod from all its corners, 17.
Fancies, on opening his bedroom door, that he sees numberless diabolical imps, with bloody faces and immense black eyes, which so terrify him that he sinks on his knees, a cold sweat breaks out on his body, his heart beats violently, he thinks he will suffocate, and cries loudly for help; suddenly one of the imps commences playing on a hand-organ and making such grotesque grimaces that he bursts into fits of laughter, 1.
On the wall of the room, at a great distance, a monstrous head was spiked up, which commenced a succession of grimaces of the most startling but ludicrous character. Its ferociously bearded under-jaw extended indefinitely, and then the jaw shooting back, the mouth opened from ear to ear.
The nose spun out into absurd enormity, and the eyes winked with the rapidity of lightning, 17. [80.]
Thrown into "unbearable horror" by the falling upon him of a "shower of soot from heaven," 17.
All the events of his past life, even those long forgotten, and those the most trivial, were thrown in symbols from a rapidly revolving wheel, each of which was recognizes as an act of his life, and each came in the order of sequence the act it indicated occupied in history, 17.
He has ludicrous visions of old and wrinkled females, who are found to be composed of knit yarn, 17.
Illusions of the senses. He hears voices, and be most sublime music. He sees visions of beauty and glory that can only be equalled in Paradise. Landscapes of sublimest beauty, with profusion of flowers of most brilliant colors, in contrast, to afford the greatest delight. Architecture of magnificent beauty and grandeur, and all giving a consciousness of happiness for the time, without mixture, 17.
Vision of a silent army passed him in the street, in the evening, when walking, 17.
When walking in the open air, the plain is suddenly expanded and covered with a band of Tartars, who rush along in mad haste, their caps streaming with plumes and horsehair, 17.
While walking in the street, the houses suddenly become movable and take to nodding, bowing, and dancing in the most remarkable manner, 17.
His familiar acquaintance is mistaken for a Chinese mandarin, 17.
When walking in the street, he suddenly sees the muffled figure of a man start from the wall. His appearance is such as to excite the utmost horror. "Every lineament of his face was stamped with the records of a life black with damning crime. It glared on me with a ferocious wickedness and a stony despair. I seemed to grow blasphemous in looking at him, and in an agony of fear turned to run away," 17.
Suddenly awoke, after midnight, and found himself in a realm of the most perfect clarity of view, yet terrible with an infinitude of demoniac shadows. Beside the bed, in the centre of the room, stood a bier, from whose corners drooped the folds of a heavy pall, and on it a fearful corpse, whose livid face was distorted with the pangs of assassination. Every muscle was tense, the finger-nails pierced the dead man's palm by the force of his dying clench. Two tapers at the head and two at the feet made the ghastliness of the bier more luminously unearthly, and a smothered laugh of derision from some invisible watcher mocked the corpse, as if triumphant demons were exulting over their prey, 17. [90.]
"Then the walls of the room began slowly to glide together, the ceiling coming down, the floor ascending, like the captive's cell which was doomed to be his tomb. Nearer and nearer I was borne toward the corpse. I shrunk back; I tried to cry out, but speech was paralyzed. The walls came closer and closer. Presently my hand lay on the dead man's forehead. I was stifled in the breathless niche, which was all the space still left to me. The stony eyes stared up into nine, and again the maddening peal of fiendish laughter rang close beside my ear. Now I was touched on all sides by the walls of the terrible press; then came a heavy crush, and I felt all sense blotted out in darkness," 17.
"I awakened; the corpse was gone, but I had taken is place on the bier. The room had now grown into a gigantic hall, whose roof was framed of iron arches. Pavement, walls, cornice were all iron, and a thrill from them seemed to say this iron is a tearless fiend. I suffered from the vision of that iron as from the presence of a giant assassin. Then there emerged from the sulfurous twilight the most horrible form -a fiend, also of iron, white-hot, and dazzling with the glory of the nether penetralia. A face that was the incarnation of all malice and irony looked on me with a glare, withering from its intense heat, but more from the wickedness it symbolized. Beside him another demon rocked a cradle framed of bars of iron, and candescent with a heat fierce as the fiends. And now a chant of blasphemy, so fearful that no human thought has ever conceived of it, from the demons, till I grew intensely wicked by hearing it. The music accorded with the thought, and with is clangor mixed the maddening creak of the forever oscillating cradle, until I felt driven to a ferocious despair. Suddenly, the nearest fiend thrust a pitchfork of white-hot iron into my side, and hurled me into the fiery cradle. I lay unconsumed, tossing from side to side by rocking of the fiery engine, and still the chant of blasphemy, and the eyes of demoniac sarcasm smiled at me in mockery. 'Let us sing to him,' said one of the fiends, 'the lullaby of hell!'" 17.
"Withered like a leaf in the breath of an oven, after millions of years, I felt myself tossed on the iron floor. Presently, I was in a colossal square, and surrounded by houses a hundred stories high. With bitter thirst, I ran to a fountain carved in iron, every jet of which was sculptured in mockery of water, and yet as dry as the ashes of a furnace. I called for water, when every sash in all the hundred stories of that square flew up, and a maniac stood at every window, They gnashed at me, glared, gibbered, howled, laughed, horribly hissed, and cursed. Then I became insane at the sight, and leaping up and down, mimicked them all," 17.
From zenith to horizon an awful angel of midnight blackness floated. His face looked unutterable terrors into me, and his dreadful hands half-clenched above my head, as if waiting to take me by the hair. Across the firmament a chariot came like lightning, with wheels like rainbow suns. At its approach, the sable angel turned and rushed down into the horizon, that seemed to smoke as he slid through it, and I was saved, 17.
The scene then became theatrical, and he an actor, who improvised his tragedy and held his immense audience entranced. Suddenly, a look of suspicion came over every face. "In sought relief by turning from the pit to the boxes. The same stony glance met me still. Oh! they knew my secret, and at that instant one maddening chorus broke from the whole theatre, 'Hashish! Hashish! He has eaten Hashish!' I crept from the stage in unutterable shame. I crouched in concealment. I looked at my garments, and beheld them foul and ragged as a beggar's. From head to foot I was the incarnation of squalidity. My asylum proved on the pavement of a great city's principal thoroughfare. Children pointed at me; loungers stood and searched me with inquisitive scorn. The multitude of man and beast all eyed me; the very stones in the street mocked me with a human raillery as I cowered against a side wall in my bemired rags," 17.
Imagines some one calls him, 1.
He hears music of the sweetest and sublimest melody and harmony, and sees venerable bards with their harps, who play as if it were the music of heaven, 17.
In music, a single tone seemed like the most divine harmony, 24.
Imagines he hears music; shuts his eyes, and is lost for some time in the most delicious thoughts and dreams, 1.
He fancies he hears numberless bells ringing most sweetly, 1. [100.]
For fully two weeks after, when sitting in his office, in quiet summer afternoons, reading desultorily, he would hear most magnificent harmony, as if some master-hand were paying an organ, and using only the softer stops. There was this peculiarity about the hearing of the music, namely, one must be in a state of half reverie, and then the divine strains, soft and marvellously sweet, followed one another in a smoother legato than any human fingering ever accomplished. If one roused the attention and strained the ear, as if to be sure of catching every chord, silence came at once, 41.
Heard the noise of colors, green, red, blue, and yellow sounds coming to him in perfectly distinct waves, 28.
After such experience of ecstasy as has already been described, when just emerging from a dense wood, he heard a hissing whisper, "Kill thyself! Kill thyself!" "I turned to see who spoke. No one was visible. The whisper was repeated with intenser earnestness; and now unseen tongues repeated it on all sides and in the air above me, 'The Most High commands thee to kill thyself'. I drew forth my knife, opened it, and placed it at my throat, when I felt the blow of some invisible hand strike my arm; my hand flew back at the force of the shock, and the knife went spinning into the bushes. The whispers ceased," 17.
In his first experiment, the sensations it produced where those, physically, of exquisite lightness and airiness; mentally, of a wonderfully keen perception of the ludicrous in the most simple and familiar objects, 18.
Objects by which he was surrounded assumed such a strange and whimsical expression, became in themselves so inexpressibly absurd and comical, that he was provoked into a long fit of laughter. The hallucination died away as gradually as it came, leaving him overcome with a soft pleasant drowsiness, from which he sank into a deep refreshing sleep. 18.
In his second experiment, the same fine nervous thrill (that he experience in his first experiment) suddenly shot through him. But this time it was accompanied by a burning sensation at the pit of the stomach, and instead of growing upon him with a gradual pace of healthy slumber, and resolving him, as before, into air, it came with the inttensity of a pang, and shot throbbing along the nerves to the extremities of his body. It seemed to him as if he existed without form throughout a vast extent of space. His whole body seemed to expand, and the arch of his skull to be broader than the vault of heaven. His sensations presented themselves to him a double form; one physical, and therefore, to a certain extent, tangible, and the other spiritual; and revealing itself in a succession of splendid metaphors. His physical feeling of being was accompanied by an image of an exploding meteor, not subsiding into darkness, but continuing to shoot from its centre or nucleus, which corresponded to the burning spot at the pit of his stomach, incessant coruscations of light, that finally lost themselves in the infinity of space. His mind was crowded with a succession of visions, but all ending in the ludicrous, 18.
While he was most completely under the influence of the drug, he was perfectly conscious that he sat in the tower of Antonio's hotel, in Damascus, knew that he had taken Hashish, and that the strange, gorgeous, and ludicrous fancies which possessed him were the effects of it, 18.
He was conscious of two distinct conditions of being in the same moment, of which neither conflicted with the other. His enjoyment of the visions was complete and absolute, undisturbed by the faintest doubts of their reality; while, in some other chamber of his brain, reason sat coolly watching them, and heaping the liveliest ridicule on their fantastic features, 18.
One set of nerves was thrilled with the bliss of the gods, while another was convulsed with unquenchable laughter at that very bliss. His highest ecstasies could not bear down and silence the weight of his ridicule, which, in its turn, was powerless to prevent him from running into other and more gorgeous absurdities. After awhile the visions became more grotesque than ever, but less agreeable; and there was a painful tension throughout his nervous system. He laughed until his eyes overflowed profusely; every drop that fell immediately became a large loaf of bread, and tumbled upon the shopboard of a baker in the bazaar at Damascus. The more he laughed, the faster the loaves fell, until such a pile was raised about the baker that he could hardly see the top of his head, 18.
A fierce and furious heat radiated from the stomach throughout his system; his mouth and throat were as hard as though made of brass, and his tongue it seemed to him, was a bar of rusty iron. Although he seized a pitcher of water and drank long and deeply, his palate and throat gave no intelligence of his having drunk at all, 18. [110.]
About midnight his excited blood rushed through his frame with a sound like the roaring of mighty waters. It was projected into his eyes until he could no longer see; it beat thickly on his ears, and so throbbed on his heart, that he feared the ribs would give way under its blows. He tore open his vest, placed his hand over the spot, and tried to count the pulsations; but there were two hearts, one beating at the rate of a thousand beats a minute, and the other with a slow, dull motion. His throat he thought was filled to the brim with blood, and streams of blood were pouring from his ears. After the visions were over, there arose a sensation of distress, which was more severe than pain itself, 18.
His throat was as dry as a potsherd, and his stiffened tongue cleaved to the roof of his mouth, 18.
About 3 o'clock the next morning, rather more than five hours after the Hashish had been taken, he sunk into a stupor. All the following day and night he lay in a state of blank oblivion, broken only by a single wavering gleam of consciousness, 18.
He arose, attempted to dress himself, drank two cups of coffee, and then fell back into the same deathlike stupor, 18.
On the morning of the second day, after a sleep of thirty hours, he awoke again to the world, with a system utterly prostrate and unstrung, and a brain clouded with the lingering images of his visions, 18.
There was no taste in what he ate, no refreshment in what he drank, and it required a painful effort to comprehend what was said to him, and return a coherent answer, 18.
After drinking a glass of very acid sherbet, he experienced instant relief of the these symptoms. The spell was not wholly broken, and for two or three days he continued subject to frequent involuntary fits of absence of mind, 18.
The ruling hallucination of one of his companions was that he was a locomotive, 18.
In about an hour and a half after taking I perceived a heaviness of the head, wandering of the mind, and apprehension that I was going to faint. I thence passed into a state of half-trance, from which I awoke suddenly and much refreshed. The impression was that of wandering out of myself; I had two beings, and there were two distinct, yet concurrent trains of ideas. Images came floating before me; not the figures of a dream, but those that seem to play before the eye when it is closed; and with those figures were strangely mixed the sounds of a guitar that was being played in an adjoining room; the sounds seemed to cluster in and pass away with the figures in the retina. The music of the wretched performance was heavenly, and seemed to proceed from a full orchestra, and to be reverberated through long halls of mountains, These figures and sound were again connected with metaphysical reflections, which, also, like the sounds, clustered themselves into trains of thought, which seemed to take form before my eyes, and weave themselves with the colors and sounds. I was following a train of reasoning; new points would occur, and concurrently there was a figure before me throwing out corresponding shoots, like a zinc tree; and then, as the moving figures reappeared, or as the sounds caught my ear, the other classes of figures came out distinctly, and danced through each other. The reasonings were long and elaborate, and though the impression of having gone through them remains, every effort has been in vain to recall them. The following scene was described by me, and taken down at the time. A general commanding an army, and doubting whether he should engage the enemy, consulted the oracle. The oracle answered: "Go with the fortune of Cæsar." He gave battle, and was beaten. His king ordered his head to be cut off; but the general accused the oracle. The king cried, "The oracle is not in fault; it did not tell you that you were Cæsar. You were twice a fool to mistake its meaning, and your own worth." The general answered, "Then is the fault his who sent a fool to command his armies." "Nay," answered the king. "thou shalt not twist one phrase to thy benefit, and another to my loss." This scene seemed to pass before me, and in the region of Carthage, which was all familiar, though I had never been there. The general was an Abyssinian; the king a white man with black beard. The next time I tried it the only effect was to make me lose a night's rest (taken toward evening). The first time (taken in the morning) it had given me a double portion of sleep; on both occasions it enormously increased my appetite. It was followed by no depression. The first time I took it at half past four, and after that a liqueur-glass of caraway spirits, to hasten the effect. I did not feel cold, while those who were walking with me, and wrapped in mantles, were complaining of it. The came an unsteadiness of gait; not that of one who fears to fall, of one who tries to keep down, for I felt as if there were springs in my knees, and was reminded of the story of the man with the mechanical leg, that walked away with him. I sat down to dinner at half past 6 o'clock. There was a glass between me and the rest of the company, and an inch or two interposed between me and whatever I touched. What I ate and how much did not matter; the food flowed like a river through me. There was a wind going by, blowing over the table and carrying away the sounds, and I saw the words tumbling over one another over the falls.

There was a dryness of the mouth, which was not thirst . The dryness radiated from the back of the throat, opposite the nape of the neck. It was a patch of dark-blue color; the food, as it reached this point, pouring down, and taking the color of the patch. I was under the impression that I described all this at the time, but was told that I would not say anything about myself, or describe what I experienced. I should have been relieved if some one present had been under he same influence. The bursts of laughter to which I gave rise were not at all pleasing, except when they were excited by any observation I made which was not connected with myself. I never lost the consciousness of what was going on; there were always present the real objects, as well as the imaginary ones; but at times I began to doubt which was which, and then I floated in strange uncertainty. It came by fits, with, I thought, hours of intervals, when only minutes could have elapsed, 26.

Their first sensations were of intense astonishment at the circumstance that they found themselves no longer masters of their own acts, while they still remained lucid witnesses of all acts, however foolish. Here the difference between alcoholic inebriation and that from Hashish is strongly marked. They saw themselves committing absurdities of the most grotesque kind; leaping, beating time to nothing, moving their arms as if receiving electrical shocks, writing ridiculous words, and so forth, without any power on their par to prevent such exhibitions; but yet standing, as it were, independently of them, as though they were merely subjects of observation exhibited from other persons than themselves. At first they had the sensation and appearance of feigning a state of exaltation which they did not feel, and which was even feigned with so much uncertainty and awkwardness that any one aiding in it would for a long time believe in its unreality. It is, nevertheless, an irresistible propensity, 39. [120.]
At one moment the intellect is obscure, and loses itself in forgetfulness of the past; then it returns clear, and is able to form a judgement for a moment, and disapprove of any acts it may have before sanctioned, but only to be again involved in that state of automatic folly which is so peculiar a phenomenon during Hashish intoxication. During the intervals of confusion or darkness, the lucid moments possess a power and comprehension truly marvellous, so that in a few seconds the most distinct and accurate picture of a range of life, including as much as forty years, may be recast and surveyed. The alternation from obscurity to lucidity is like the effect of a sea-wave; a lucid wave is followed by a dark overhanging wave on which the mind is shipwrecked, and carried with the sensation of a melancholy floating towards forgetfulness and oblivion, to be roused instantly by the passage over it once more of the wave of life and light. The dark waves chase each other so long as they continue, and the mind, unable to continue its thoughts and acts, but bending under a successive series of impressions, the shortest space of time seems to present the duration of an eternity, 39.
A seeming extraordinary slowness of time, which struck the observers in so singular a manner, and made them so impatient of delay, that they were continually recurring to their watches, and observing, with a kind of awe, how minutes were transformed into epochs. With this apparently interminable length of time, there seemed to occur a kind of forgetfulness, by which an act of the mind, taking place an interval before, or an impression received some time before, were in a manner forgotten; but, in a few brief moments they returned, or presented themselves, as it were, for the first time and in such manner, almost unaccountably repeated themselves, and reproduced frequently, as now, the impressions they reinspired, 39.
There was noticed in the observers, so different themselves ordinarily in general character and temperament, a common docility and absence of susceptibility which was most remarkable. Thus one of them gave to another with whom he was but slightly acquainted a series of hard blows on the back, saying that he himself felt nothing of the Hashish, and asking whether the blows he inflicted were felt. On his part, he who received the blows took them all in good humor, uttering no complaint, and seeming, in indeed, insusceptible of complaint. Again, one of them, who sat writing, submitted to receive the infliction of two sharp blows, boxes on the ears, and to have his pen snatched out of his hand, without any expression of pain or even annoyance. Reproaches between them for having taken the drug never passed; but each, laughing all the time, tried often, in lucid intervals, to produce sickness. Such was the good humor that prevailed that each one mutually yielded up his own will and obeyed the other; the whole trio joyfully concurring in all that suggested itself to them, as withdrawing them from the idea of danger, and fully agreeing in particulars as to the sensations they experienced, 39.
Was seized with melancholy, from which he could rouse himself only by imitating the movements and follies of the other. Then he had a great inclination to laugh, but kept himself free from the obvious action of the drug by going behind his companions. Suddenly he perceived a change in his intellectual faculties, which appeared less obedient to his will, and feeling he should be worse, he began to register his thoughts of what happened to him. Scarcely had he began, than it seemed more important to him to record the follies uttered by one of his companions. He soon felt himself, however, unable to continue, and his hands with difficulty traced unformed characters. Then becoming preoccupied with a scheme which scribblers might think the act of a madman, he with great difficulty wrote a short justification of his conduct in Milanese. He next began to feel a pleasing stupor; his head seemed to dilate, but without strain, gently! gently! He possessed the use of his senses of mind, but every occupation wearied him. He passively assisted in what was occurring around him, and unable to give any account of it or reason, was able to laugh at all or everything, 39.
After about a quarter of an hour, a weakness of his whole body came on, his legs would not support him, his arms became heavy, and he was seized with a kind of fainting similar to that which at times follows loss of blood. He was obliged to throw himself on the sofa, his limbs became rigid, he entirely lost his sensations, becoming cataleptic, and remained for a long time in this state. By degrees his senses partially returned, so that he was enabled to understand and retain some directions given to him, but he became insensible again, and when put to bed a very hot box placed at his feet, which were very cold, produced no impression. By degrees the insensibility or anæsthesia which had pervaded his whole body relaxed in the left half of his body, but remained perfect in the right. His consciousness, which had never entirely left him but for a few brief moments, by degrees returned to its natural state, so that he could recall what had occurred to him and reflect upon his condition. Again, anæsthesia extended all over his body, and now was added an automaton-like and rapid movement of the hands, one hand being pressed upon the breast, and rubbed actively on the back with the palm of the other hand; his head also ached, and he had a sensation of weakness. The anæsthesia gradually decreased, but the sensibility did not return universally, nor steadily, there being frequent relapses. By turns the right arm or the leg, or the right half of the face, and then all these parts together, would seem petrified, so that he could not move them, and would then relax. As time went on these phenomena were more frequently repeated in the head and face, the change being quick enough to give great pain; when suddenly the mass of his brain, all except a small portion, seemed changed to marble, and appeared to him to possess all the properties of such a substitution; his right eye, for a long time, retained the sensation of marbly hardness. These symptoms, now going, now returning, lasted more than thirty-six hours. The mind, meantime, had not remained idle, but during moments of returned consciousness assisted as a spectator; ideas succeeded each other with such rapidity that they made a short space of time seem very long. These ideas, although more often scattered, had at times an intimate and long connection; thus every person who had ever assisted him he seemed to see for years and years performing all those long and varied series of acts, which might in reality have been performed during such a period, so that he felt convinced that all those years hat really passed. He also had a sort of hallucination in which he seemed transported to a place whimsically made of brass; this, he thought, was the vestibule of Mohammed's paradise, and that he was denied entrance the it. On going out he found himself launched into space, and compelled to describe very rapidly a vast orbit, in a gloomy, painfully breathing, oppressive circle. This painful sensation lasted a long time, and was among the most disagreeable of the experiment, 39.
Was a prey to extreme loquacity and mobility of ideas; was continually preoccupied with solicitous impressions as to the fate of his companions, for whom he feared the dose of Hashish had been excessive, and might even prove poisonous.
After he had taken the drug about six hours he was seized with a sort of gesticulatory convulsions in the arms and legs, and by degrees his symptoms assumed the appearance of those which characterize hydrophobia. He was possessed with outbreaks of fear at the sight of bright objects, at the sensation of every sharp little breath of air, or the approach of any one; but these exhibitions were momentary only, and he then paid no attention to what hat been previously exciting influences. He asked for water, and seized the cup with a trembling and convulsive hand, but carried it to his lips only to thrust it away without drinking, being unable even with the greatest effort to swallow a single draught. Upon this there succeeded a feeling of uneasiness, as though from dryness of the throat, or rather a sensation that the tongue and throat were covered with a dry soft body. An urgent desire to be held, to be guided, and to be taken care of altogether, under the involuntary feeling that, if such protection were not bestowed he should get out of bed (in which he was by this time laid) to commit some foolish act. Sensation of pressure at the back of the head, before the occurrence of convulsive movements, which changed into an unpleasant feeling of heat, then of cold, in consequence of which his hand were carried automatically to that spot, and there, as though there were a difficulty in detaching them. There was also a sensation of cramps in the calves of the legs, which rendered the movement of the legs impossible, or caused them to be distended, or to take a sudden jump, 39.
Four hours and a half after taking I was sitting with the family, playing the guitar, when one of the tunes, a rather solemn one, seemed suddenly to assume a more melodious character; it gradually increased in grandeur bar after bar; sinking deep in my soul until I was wholly absorbed with it. The words died away and I still went on with the accompaniment; my mind carried the air, and all surrounding objects faded; I lived wholly in the music; and a deep subdued joyous feeling, such as I never before felt, pervaded my whole being. At last I came to myself somewhat, and turned to the others and remarked that it was beautiful, and asked if they did not think so. They were much surprised at the question, and said it possessed very little merit. I was now surprised in my turn and began to argue its merits, offering to play it over. At this moment a strange crawling sensation commenced in my body, it extended to my limbs, down my arms, to my fingers' ends, and up into my brain; it travelled slowly, yet so powerful was it that I was wholly overcome with surprise. I was a little alarmed at the feeling, but immediately the word "Hashish" passed through my mind. Ah! that was it, that was the enchanter that made my music sound so sweet. I was glad to find it had not failed; I was reassured; it was undoubtedly the legitimate effect of the drug. All these things were very nice, but yet the thrill was a thing I had not expected, and another and another following in close succession, I began to wish the last dose had been as ineffectual as the first. I commenced considering what was best to be done. I could not decide whether to sit still or go to my room. I tried to play, but an apparent ebullition in the air prevented me from seeing the notes; the thrills were growing stronger every moment, and I concluded I had best leave the room lest I should do something foolish. I arose abruptly, and with guitar in one hand and music-stand in the other, I sallied forth to go down stairs. No sooner did I commence to move than the thrills increased; stronger and stronger they came, closer and closer they succeeded each other, until one ceased not until an almost overwhelming thrill gave notice of another's birth. In going down stairs my mind ever and anon would wandering other matters and things, and when I recalled my thoughts to what was immediately before me I wondered to find myself still going down stairs. Then a feeling of dread uncertainty seized me, "Shall I ever reach the bottom?" I doubted that I would, yet my reason told me I was going right; so I pressed on. I put my guitar away safely and this reassured me. I say reassured, because I had begun to doubt that any of the things around me had existence, but I reasoned that I had succeeded in finding the guitar-box, and hence some things must exist, and, as I had seen one right, so it was likely all existed. Still I was uncertain that I maintained control of my faculties and motive powers; an intuitive assurance, however, made me depend on them, and I determined to go quietly upstairs to my room; I went up very quietly; indeed, I seemed not to touch the steps; I trod the air as a swimmer treads water; my feet came near the steps but did not strike them. I reached my room, but what to do now; it did not improve my condition. I determined to lie down until the thrills went off, which I thought would certainly be very soon, and then I expected other effects to follow. I threw myself on the bed, but immediately sprang to my feet again, for no sooner did I lie down than I thought of catalepsy being sometimes produced by the use of the drug; no, I must not lie down; I must keep my soul in my body by force of will, or perhaps it would never return, and I felt that it was trying to wing itself away. As the extract was strong and so small an amount had produced so great an effect, I was afraid I had taken too great a dose, and became alarmed lest it should play me foul. The thrills had now become continuous, the commencing of each being only known by an increase in their force; my heart and veins began to throb violently, the blood began to rush to my head, and I feared apoplexy. My tongue became coated with saliva, and I thought my body was dissolving into fluids. I spit from the window. I afterwards thought it was foolish for me to do so as I might jump from the window, for I felt certain I did not possess the full command of my faculties. The uncertain aspect of things now increased, with the whole force of my reason seemingly unimpaired. I could not convince myself the furniture in the room had other than an ideal existence; this feeling was so oppressive that I determined to seek the rest of the family. But how could I reach them? I was in another sphere; I had journeyed to a world whose objects I could not realize, an uncertain world whose paths I did not know. An atmosphere surrounded my little world through which I could not pass; to break through the open doorway seemed as impossible as to wing my way through the ethereal regions to the throne above. This was my station; here I must remain. A feeling of loneliness now overwhelmed me. I must seek the rest of the family. I hurled my body through the seemingly impenetrable though invisible barrier. On, on, I went, pushing my way through a resistant atmosphere, or surrounding, which was a creation of my state. I know not how to express the feeling of this existence; there is no type among natural things to which I can compare it; an ethereal fluid it seemed to be, not dense as water nor rare as air, yet it resisted, and I by force of will overcame it step by step. Here I noticed the two parts of my being acting separately; my will or spiritual existence was separate from my bodily existence, and spurring it onward, pushing it forwards and using it much as an artificer uses a tool; onward it forced my body, seeming to exult in its supremacy. I cannot say whether my feelings at this time were more oppressed or buoyant, for while my mind seemed oppressed by the appearance of the objects along my route, and fear of injury from the effect of the drug, my soul was exultant as though in a more congenial atmosphere, and glad of its partial disenthralment. I at last reached the room I sought; so long a time seemed to have elapsed since I had been last there, that I did not expect to see the family there; it was impossible for me to keep any record of time, but it seemed as though I had been a long time away, and I expected to find the room tenantless; so certain was I that this would be the case that I was surprised to see them seated as I had left them. When I saw them, for an instant I thought they were really there, but it was only for an instant; they immediately assumed the same unreal appearance which other things held. I had determined that I would say nothing about my having taken the drug to the others for fear of frightening them, though I had told them I intended to take it. I did not doubt I could control my tongue, but. things about me seemed so unreal, and they were so silent, that I could not restrain myself; I must speak to them, and see if they are really here, but. what should I say? I rummaged my brain for a question to ask, but could think of nothing but "Hashish." This I did not wish to speak of, but nothing else would come to my mind; I must say something, for I could bear this feeling no longer. Then my reason told me it was best that they should know I had taken the drug, as they would then know how to treat me if any dangerous symptoms occurred, so I opened my mouth and said, "I have taken Hashish." My voice appeared strange to me; it seemed as though another person spoke; I looked around; my words had made no impression on those around me; is it possible they can sit silent? I had thought they would have all sprang to their feet, so suicidal did it appear to me for one to take the drug. "I have forgotten," thought I; "they do not know the nature of the drug." I explained to them that it was the drug I had spoken to them of shortly before; I told them of its effects; how everything, even themselves, seemed unreal; that I did not feel certain that I was even in the room with them; they all looked up and smiled, and again resumed their former positions without saying a word. This was agonizing; were these only the phantoms of my friends that I had called up? "Speak to me," I cried; "speak to me, or I will go crazy. I think I see you here; I appear to be in the room with you, yet so uncertain does everything look that I cannot convince myself that it is so. Speak to me, that I may be assured that at least I am not deceived in this." Some one answered me; I heard the voice, it seemed familiar, yet it was the phantom that spoke; all was still unreal; I myself was unreal, even my voice did not seem my own. I tried to reassure myself by conversing with them. I saw they knew not how I felt. An irresistible desire to make them know how I felt now seized me; this I felt was impossible; they had now no fellow-feeling with me. I was alone; no earthly being could sympathize with me; I saw the impossibility of making them understand me, yet I must make the attempt; I told them all my feelings; they seemed to think it only imagination, and that I was only using symbols to represent them; my feelings were hurt, and I almost wept; it seemed as if they doubted my word. I now began to think over my past actions while in this state; it seemed to me a dream; I could not believe I had been upstairs, or even out of the room; no, I had fallen asleep with my guitar in my hand, and had dreamed I was upstairs. I looked for my guitar; it was not there; certainly then I must have put it away, or else I was dreaming yet; perhaps I had gone to bed at night and been dreaming all along, making a full day's work of dreaming. I became convinced that this was so, but I immediately thought of the Hashish, which dispelled the illusion; I then asked how long I had been absent from the room; I was answered, "About five minutes;" it had seemed to me as many hours. I asked how I looked; was told, "pale, eyes half-closed and dull, and my hands were cold and clammy." I now felt a resinous matter exude from every pore of my body; it lined my mouth and throat, creating a great thirst. I got a glass of water and drank it; it seemed to form a continuous stream, and ran down my throat by its own gravity without any aid from me. I became afraid to drink any more; immediately on ceasing to drink it seemed to me that the water had formed itself into one bolus and gone down my throat within an atmosphere of its own, without touching either side. So everything appeared different after I had done it from what it did while I was doing. I would sometimes make a remark which I would think of the greatest importance, and speak it in a very impressive manner that it might not be lost; immediately it would be figured to me as that of another, and I would have to smile at the foolish fellow for making so ridiculous a remark. At one time I felt constrained to let all my thoughts be known. I would think of a thing, digest it in my mind, and then with a pompous air, would make it known to those about me, something as follows: I was thinking of my thirst and feelings together, and suddenly broke forth with, "This drug is acting very strangely; it is operating upon the fluids of my body; it decomposes my blood, throwing off the equivalents of water, the oxygen being thrown off at the + poles, the hydrogen at the - poles, and the electricity produced by the decomposition as well as by the reunion of these gases, as they escape through the pores in the form of perspiration, acts upon my nerves and produces this strange feeling; my stomach is the battery, Hashish the acid, and my nerves the conductors." My tongue seemed to be under the control of my will, and things I thought best left unsaid I could generally keep to myself. My ideas of the propriety of things, however, were at times quite different from what they were in the natural state. After pacing the room (which I did continually to assure myself I still could move), I stopped suddenly, and turning to a sister, I told her what I thought to be a grand discovery, clothed in the choicest language the English tongue could admit of: "This Hashish," said I, "acts upon the urinary glands, and I feel that could I pass water I would feel better." This was not received as reverently as it should have been, which called forth a lecture on propriety from me, much to the amusement of the rest. I then began a censorship of my own conduct. I began noting my manner of walking and talking, at one time asking if I did not look like Mr. C., consequential; at another, like Mr. F., a nervous individual; and again, if I did not act like a Mr. C., a crazy man, remarking that I thought the last-named had taken Hashish. The others now became alarmed at my strange actions, and procured for me an emetic. I laughed at them, and told them it was no use, I had taken the drug early in the morning. They then brought a mixture of ether; camphor, etc.; I told them it would only make matters worse; I took it, however, at their persuasion. It put me for awhile in awful agony without taking away my strange feelings, and when its first effects passed off left me extremely melancholy. I gave up hope of coming back to my right state of mind. I asked them to send to the doctor for an antidote, being satisfied by their answering that they would if I grew worse. I turned my thoughts to what the doctor would say. "What," said I, "if the doctor should say I would never recover; minutes seem years, what an eternity of madness would there be before me then; to know that I must die in my madness at last, how awful !" I could not bear the thought. At the suggestion of the others I went to the parlor, they thinking it would be more cheerful. As it became dark, I became more melancholy. I said that if God did not will that the antidote should be effective, it would not be effective, but if he willed it to be so, so it would be; suppose we go to God at once, instead of going for the antidote. "There is no use," said I, "of me praying, as I cannot tell whether I am talking or not; besides, God would not hear the prayer of a crazy man; you are in your right senses, one of you pray for me." We knelt down, but the prayer being on the wrong subject, I in disgust turned my thoughts to other matters, and talked of other things until supper-time. As I entered the room the light fell full upon me. How beautiful did that light appear; all my melancholy feelings at once left me; I felt a dark shadow lifted from my soul, and all was light within. The light penetrated through my body. I seemed transparent; I could almost look into my own body and see the various organs thereof, all of which seemed to me to be reflecting from their surface a calm lustre, which filled my whole soul. On turning myself to eat, I thought everything had something hurtful in it. I could not eat meat, because it had chloride of sodium on it, nor eat bread, because the butter was too strong a stimulant. Being persuaded, however, I ate a piece of meat; to do so I had to call to mind the various processes and modus operandi of "feeding." "First," I reasoned, "they put the substance in the mouth, and by moving the under jaw down and up and mixing the saliva with it by motion of the tongue, they masticate it." This was easily accomplished. The spittle seemed to have legs and arms, and I could feel it scrambling through the meat, but when it was thoroughly masticated, I could not remember, or rather could not date back to the time I put the meat in my mouth; chewing seemed to have been my regular business for some time past. It was time now to swallow it; here was a great difficulty. I could move my jaws at will, but to get command of the muscles of my throat wholly baffled all my endeavors. At last I made a sort of compromise. "They throw the bolus back on the tongue, press the tongue on the roof of the mouth, the bolus slides back, irritates the muscles of the pharynx, and down it goes." I tried this, it succeeded admirably, and I applauded myself for my good generalship. A friend called to see me after supper; I determined to keep myself rational while he remained, by force of my will, which I found I could do. At this time the sedative you sent reached me; I took it, and afterwards went to the piano and played until the thrills went off. I had perfect control of my fingers, excepting when I tried to vary a piece I knew well, in which case I could not play anything but the proper notes of the piece, my fingers being drawn to the keys either by force of custom or by tenor of the tune. The full effect of the drug did not go off for a week, and even during the next succeeding week I brought back the thrills strongly by taking hot stimulants, though they lasted but a few seconds and brought no hallucinations, 2.
A shock, as of some unimagined vital force, shoots without warning through my entire frame, leaping to my fingers ends, piercing my brain, startling me till I almost spring from my chair, 17.
No pain anywhere, not a twinge in any fibre, yet a cloud of unutterable strangeness was settling upon me, and wrapping me impenetrably in from all that was natural or familiar. Endeared faces, well known to me of old, surrounded me, yet they were not with me in my loneliness. I had entered upon a tremendous life which they could not share. If the disembodied ever return to hover over the hearthstone which once had a seat for them, they look upon their friends as I then looked upon mine. A nearness of place with an infinite distance of state, a connection which had no possible sympathies for the wants of that hour of revelation, an isolation none the less perfect for seeming companionship, 17.
Yet it was not my voice which spoke; perhaps one which I once had far away in another time and another place. For awhile I knew nothing that was going on externally, and then the remembrance of the last remark which had been made returned slowly and indistinctly, as some trait of a dream will return after many days, puzzling us to say where we have been conscious of it before, 17. [130.]
A fitful wind all the evening had been sighing down the chimney; it now grew into the steady hum of a vast wheel in accelerating motion. For awhile this hum seemed to resound through all space. I was stunned by it, I was absorbed in it. Slowly the revolution of the wheel came to a stop, and its monotonous din was changed for the reverberating peal of a grand cathedral organ. The ebb and flow of its inconceivably solemn tone filled me with a grief that was more than human. I sympathized with the dirge-like cadence, as spirit sympathizes with spirit. And then, in the full conviction that all I heard and felt was real, I looked out of my isolation to see the effect of the music on my friends. Ah! we were in separate worlds indeed. Not a trace of appreciation on any face, 17.
As mechanically as an automaton I began to reply. As I heard once more the alien and unreal tones of my own voice, I became convinced that it was some one else who spoke, and in another world. I sat and listened; still the voice kept speaking. Now for the first time, I experienced that vast change which Hashish makes in sufficient measurement of time. The first word of the reply occupied a period sufficient for the action of a drama; the last left me in complete ignorance of any point far enough back in the past to date the commencement of the sentence. Its enunciation might have occupied years. I was not in he same life which had held me when I heard it begun. And now with time, space expanded also. At my friend's house one particular arm-chair was always reserved for me. I was sitting in it at a distance of hardly three feet from the centre-table, around which the members of the family were grouped. Rapidly that distance widened. The whole atmosphere seemed ductile, and spun endlessly out into great spaces surrounding me on every side. We were in a vast hall, of which my friends and I occupied opposite extremities. The ceiling and the walls ran upward with a gliding motion, as if vivified by a sudden force of resistless growth. Oh! I could not bear it. I should soon be left alone in the midst of an infinity of space. And now every moment increased the conviction that I was watched. I did not know then, as I learned afterwards, that suspicion of all earthly things and persons was the characteristic of the Hashish delirium, 17.
In the midst of my complicated hallucination, I could perceive that I had a dual existence. One portion of me was whirled unresistingly along the track of this tremendous experience, the other sat looking down from a height upon its double, observing, reasoning, and serenely weighing all the phenomena. This calmer being suffered with the other by sympathy, but did not lose its self-possession. Presently it warned me that I must go home, lest the growing effect of the Hashish should incite me to some act which might frighten my friends. I acknowledged the force of this remark very much as if it had been mad by another person, and rose to take my leave. I advanced towards the centre-table. With every step the distance increased. I nerved myself as for a long pedestrian journey, 17.
Still the lights, the faces, the furniture receded. At last, almost unconsciously, I reached them. It would be tedious to attempt to convey the idea of time which my leave-taking consumed, and the attempt, at least, with all minds that have not passed through the same experience would be as impossible as tedious. At last I was in the street. Beyond me the view stretched endlessly away. It was an unconverging vista, whose nearest lamps seemed separated from me by leagues. I was doomed to pass through a merciless stretch of space. A soul just disenthralled, setting out for his flight beyond the farthest visible star, could not be more overwhelmed with his newly acquired conception of the sublimity of distance than I was at that moment. Solemnly I began my infinite journey, 17.
Before long I walked in entire unconsciouness of all around me. I dwelt in a marvellous inner world. I existed by turns in different places and various states of being. Now I swept my gondola through the moonlit lagoons of Venice. Now Alp on Alp towered above my view, and the glory of the coming sun flashed purple light upon the topmost icy pinnacle. Now in the primeval silence of some unexplored tropical forest I spread my feathery leaves a giant fern, and swayed and nodded in the spice-gales over a river whose waves at once sent up clouds of music and perfume. My soul changed to a vegetable essence, thrilled with a strange and unimagined ecstasy. The palace of Al Haroun could not have brought me back to humanity. I will not detail all the transmutations of that walk. Ever and anon I returned from my dreams into conciousness, as some well-known house seemed to leap out into my path, awaking me with a shock. The whole way homeward was a series of such awakings and relapses into abstraction and delirium until I reached the corner of the street in which I lived, 17.
My sensations began to be terrific, not from any pain that I felt, but from the tremendous mystery of all around me and within me. By an appalling introversion, all the operations of vitality which, in our ordinary state, go on unconsciously, came vividly into my experience. Through every thinnest corporeal tissue and minutest vein I could trace the circulation of the blood along each inch of its progress. I knew when every valve opened and when it shut; every sense was preternaturally awakened; the room was full of a great glory. The beating of my heart was so clearly audible that I wondered to find it unnoticed by those who were sitting by my side. Lo, now, that heart became a great fountain, whose jet played upward with loud vibrations, and, striking upon the roof of my skull as on a gigantic dome, fell back with a splash and echo into its reservoir. Faster and faster came the pulsations, until at last I heard them no more, and the stream became one continuously pouring flood, whose roar resounded through all my frame. I gave myself up for lost, since judgment, which still sat unimpaired above my perverted senses, argued that congestion must take place in a few moments, and close the drama with my death, 17.
But my clutch would not yet relax from hope. The thought struck me, might not this rapidity of circulation be, after all, imaginary? I determined to find out. Going to my own room, I took out my watch, and placed my hand upon my heart. The very effort which I made to ascertain the reality gradually brought perception back to its natural state. In the intensity of my observations, I began to perceive that the circulation was not as rapid as I had thought. From a pulseless flow it gradually came to be apprehended as a hurrying succession of intense throbs, then less swift and less intense, till finally, on comparing it with the second-hand, I found that about 90 a minutes was its average rapidity. Greatly comforted, I desisted from the experiment. Almost instantly the hallucination returned. Again I dreaded apoplexy, congestion, hemorrhage, a multiplicity of nameless deaths, and drew my picture as I might be found on the morrow, stark and cold, by those whose agony would be redoubled by the mystery of my end. I reasoned with myself; I bathed my forehead; it did no good. There was one resources left: I would go to a physician, 17.
With this resolve, I left my room and went to the head of the staircase. The family had all retired for the night, and the gas was turned off from the burner in the hall below. I looked down the stairs: the depth was fathomless; it was a journey of years to reach to bottom! The dim light of the sky shone through the narrow panes at the sides of the front door, and seemed a demon-lamp in the middle darkness of the abyss. I never could get down! I sat me down despairingly upon the topmost step. Suddenly a sublime thought possessed me. It shall be tried. I commenced the descent, wearily, wearily down through my league-long, year-long journey. To record my impressions in that journey would be to repeat what I have said of the time of Hashish. Now stopping to rest, as a traveller would turn aside at a wayside inn, now toiling down through the lonely darkness, I came by and by to the end, and passed out into the street, 17.
On reaching the porch of the physician's house I rang the bell, but immediately forgot whom to ask for. No wonder I was on the steps of a palace in Milan-no (and I laughed at myself for the blunder), I was on the staircase of the Tower of London. So I should not be puzzled through my ignorance of Italian. But whom to ask for? This question recalled me to the real bearings of the place, but did not suggest its requisite answer. Whom shall I ask for? I began setting the most cunning traps of hypothesis to catch the solution of the difficulty. I looked at the surrounding houses; of whom had I been accustomed to think as living next door to them? This did not bring it. Whose daughter had been going to school from this house but the very day before? Her name was Julia-julia-and I thought of every combination which had been made with this name from Julia Domna down to Giulia Grisi. Ah! now I had it, Julia H.; and her father naturally bore the same name. During this intellectual rummage, I had rung the bell half a dozen times, under the impression that I was kept waiting a small eternity. When the servant opened the door she panted as if she had run for her life, 17.
My voice seemed to reverberate like thunder from every recess in the whole building I was terrified at the noise I had made. I learned in after days that this impression is only one of the many due to the intense sensibility of the sensorium as produced by Hashish. At one time, having asked a friend to check me if I talked loudly or immoderately while in a state of fantasia, among persons from whom I wished to conceal my state, I caught myself singing and shouting from very ecstasy, and reproached him with a neglect of his friendly office. I could not believe him when he assured me that I had not uttered and audible word. The intensity of the inward motion had affected the external through the internal ear, 17. [140.]
All was perfect silence in the room, and had been perfect darkness also, but for the small lamp which I held in my hand to light the preparation of the powder when it should come. And now a still sublimer mystery began to enwrap me. I stood in a remote chamber at the top of a colossal building, and the whole fabric beneath me was steadily growing into the air. Higher than the topmost pinnacle of Bel's Babylonish temple - higher than Ararat - on, on forever into the lonely dome of God's infinite universe we towered ceaselessly. The years flew on; I heard the musical rush of their wings in the abyss outside of me, and from cycle to cycle, from life to life I careered, a mote in eternity and space. Suddenly emerging from the orbit of my transmigrations, I was again at the foot of the doctor's bed, and thrilled with wonder that we were both unchanged by the measureless lapse of time, 17.
The thought struck me that I would compare my time with other people's I looked at my watch, found that its minute-hand stood at the quarter mark past eleven, and, returning it to my pocked, abandoned myself to my reflections, 17.
Presently I saw myself a gnome, imprisoned by a most weird enchanter, whose part I assigned to the doctor before me, in the Domdaniel caverns, "under the roots of the ocean." Here, until the dissolution of all things, was I doomed to hold the lamp that lit that abysmal darkness, while my heart, like a giant clock, ticked solemnly the remaining years of time. Now, this hallucination departing, I heard in the solitude of the night outside the sound of a wondrous heaving sea. Its waves, in sublime cadence, rolled forward till they wet the foundations of the building; they smote them with a might which made the topstone quiver, and then fell back, with hiss and hollow murmur, into the broad bosom whence they had risen. Now through the street, with measured tread, and armed host passed by. The heavy beat of their footfalls, and the griding of their brazen corslet-rings alone broke the silence, for among them all there was no more speech nor music than in battalion of the dead. It was the army of the ages going by into eternity. A godlike sublimity swallowed up my soul. I was overwhelmed in a fathomless barathrum of time, but I leaned on God, and was immortal through all changes, 17.
And now, in another life, I remembered that far back in the cycles I had looked at my watch to measure the time through which I passed. The impulse seized me to look again. The minute-hand stood half way between fifteen and sixteen minutes past eleven. The watch must have stopped; I held it to my ear; no, it was still going. I had travelled through all that immeasurable chain of dreams in thirty seconds. "My God!" I cried, "I am in eternity". In the presence of that first sublime revelation of the soul's own time, and her capacity for an infinite life, I stood trembling with breathless awe. Till I die, that moment of unveiling will stand in clear relief from all the rest of my existence. I hold it still in unimpaired remembrance as one of the unutterable sanctities of my being. The years of all my earthly life to come can never be as long as those thirty seconds, 17.
The moment that I closed my eyes a vision of celestial glory burst upon me. I stood on the strand of a translucent, boundless lake, across whose bosom I seemed to have been just transported. A short way up the beach a temple, modelled like the Parthenon, lifted its spotless and gleaming columns of alabaster sublimely into the rosy air, like the Parthenon, yet as much excelling it as the godlike ideal of architecture must transcend that ideal realized by man. Unblemished in its purity of whiteness, faultless in the unbroken symmetry of every line and angle, its pediment was draped in odorous clouds, whose tints outshone the rainbow. It was the work of an unearthly builder, and my soul stood before it in a trance of ecstasy. Its folded doors were resplendent with the glory of a multitude of eyes of glass, which were inlaid, throughout the marble surfaces, at the corners of diamond figures, from the floor of the porch to the topmost moulding. One of these eyes was golden like the midday sun, another emerald, another sapphire, and thus onward through the whole gamut of hues, all of them set in such collocations as to form most exquisite harmonies, and whirling upon their axes with the rapidity of thought. At the mere vestibule of the temple I could have sat and drunk in ecstasy forever; but lo! I am yet more blessed. On silent hinges the doors swing open, and I pass in. I did not seem to be interior of a temple. I beheld myself as truly in the open air as if I had never passed the portals, for whichever way I looked there were no walls, no roof, no pavement. An atmosphere of fathomless and soul-satisfying serenity surrounded and transfused me. I stood upon the bank of a crystal stream, whose waters, as they slid on, discoursed notes of music which tinkled on the ear like the tones of some exquisite bell-glass. The same impression which such tones produce, of music refined to its ultimate ethereal spirit and borne from a far distance, characterized every ripple of those translucent waves. The gently sloping banks of the stream were luxuriant with a velvety cushioning of grass and moss, so living green that the eye and soul reposed on them at the same time, and drank in peace. Through this amaranthine herbage strayed the gnarled, fantastic roots of giant cedars of Lebanon, from whose primeval trunks great branches spread above me, and interlocking, wove a roof of impenetrable shadow; and wandering down the still avenues, below those grand arboreal arches, went glorious bards, whose snowy beards fell on their breasts beneath countenances of ineffable benignity and nobleness. They were all clad in flowing robes like God's high priests, and each one held in his hand a lyre of unearthly workmanship. Presently one stops midway down a shady walk, and, baring his right arm, begins a prelude. While his celestial chords are trembling up into their sublime fulness, another strikes his strings, and now they blend upon my ravished ear in such a symphony as was never heard elsewhere, and such as I shall never hear again out of the Great Presence. A moment more, and three are playing in harmony; now the fourth joins the glorious rapture of his music to their own, and in the completeness of the chord my soul is swallowed up. I can bear no more. But yes, I am sustained, for suddenly the whole throng I break forth in a chorus, upon whose wings I am lifted out of the riven walls of sense, and music and spirit thrill in immediate communion. Forever rid of the intervention of pulsing air and vibrating nerve, my soul dilates with the swell of that transcendent harmony, and interprets from it arcana of a meaning which words can never tell. I am born aloft upon the glory of sound. I float in a trance among the burning choir of the seraphim. But, as I am melting through the purification of that sublime ecstasy into oneness with the Deity himself, one by one those pealing lyres faint away, and as the last throb dies down along the measureless ether, visionless arms swiftly as lightning carry me far into the profound, and set me down before another portal. Its leaves, like the first, are of spotless marble, but ungemmed with wheeling eyes of burning color, 17.
I will make a digression, for the purpose of introducing two laws of the Hashish operation, which, as explicatory, deserve a place here. First: after the completion of any one fantasia has arrived, there almost invariably succeeds a shifting of the action to some other stage entirely different in its surroundings. In this transition the general character of the emotion may remain unchanged. I may be happy in Paradise, and happy at the sources of the Nile, but seldom, either in Paradise or on the Nile, twice in succession, I may writhe in Etna and burn unquenchably in Gehenna, but almost never, in the course of the same delirium, shall Etna of Gehenna witness my torture a second time. Second: after the full storm of a vision of intense sublimity has blown past a Hashish eater, his next vision is generally of a quiet, relaxing, and recreating nature. He comes down from his clouds or up from his abyss into a middle ground of gentle shadows, where he may rest his eyes from the splendor of the seraphim or the flames of fiends. There is a wise philosophy in this arrangement, for otherwise the soul would soon burn out in the excess of its own oxygen. Many a time it seems to me has my own thus been saved from extinction, 17.
Although the last experience of which I had been conscious had seemed to satisfy every human want, physical or spiritual, I smiled on the four plain white walls of my bedchamber, and hailed their familiar unostentatiousness with a pleasure which had no wish to transfer itself to arabesque or rainbows. It was like returning home from an eternity spent in loneliness among the palaces of strangers. Well may I say and eternity, for during the whole day I could not rid myself of the feeling that I was separated from the preceding one by an immeasurable lapse of time. In fact, I never got wholly rid of it, 17.
Every function had returned to its normal state, with the one exception mentioned; memory could not efface the traces of my having passed through a great mystery, 17.
The phenomenon of the dual existence once more presented itself. One part of me awoke, while the other continued in perfect hallucination. The awakened portion felt the necessity of keeping in side streets on the way home, lest some untimely burst of ecstasy should startle more frequented thoroughfares, 17.
And now that unutterable thirst which characterizes Hashish came upon me. I could have lain me down and lapped dew from the grass. I must drink, wheresoever, howsowhere. We soon reached home; soon, because it was not five squares off where we sat down, yet ages, from the thirst which consumed me, and the expansion of time in which I lived. I came into the house as one would approach a fountain in a desert, with a wild bound of exultation, and gazed with miserly eyes at the draught which my friend poured out for me until the glass was brimming. I clutched it; I put it to my lips. Ha! a surprise. It was not water, but the most delicious metheglin in which ever bard of the Cymri drank the health of Howell Dda. It danced and sparkled like some liquid metempsychosis of amber; it gleamed with the spiritual fire of a thousand chrysolites. To sight, to taste it was metheglin, such as never mantled in the cups of Valhalla, 17. [150.]
After the walk which I last recorded, the former passion for travel returned with powerful intensity. I had now a way of gratifying it, which comported both with indolence and economy. The whole East, from Greece to farthest China, lay within the compass of a township. No outlay was necessary for the journey. For the humble sum of six cents I might purchase an excursion ticket over all the earth; ships and dromedaries, tents and hospices, were all contained in a box of Tilden's extract. Hashish I called the "drug of travel", and I had only to direct my thoughts strongly towards a particular part of the world previously to swallowing my bolus, to make my whole fantasia in the strongest possible degree topographical. Or, when the delirium was at its height, let any one suggest to me, however faintly, mountain, wilderness, or market-place, and straightway I was in it, drinking in the novelty of my surroundings in all the ecstasy of a discoverer. I swam up against the current of all time; I walked through Luxor and Palmyra as they were of old; on Babylon the bittern had not built her nest, and I gazed on the unbroken columns of the Parthenon, 17.
There are two facts which I have verified as universal by repeated experiment, which fall into their place here as aptly as they can in the course of my narrative. 1st. At two different times, when body and mind are apparently in precisely analogous states, when all circumstances, exterior and interior, do not differ tangibly in the smallest respect, the same dose of the same preparation of Hashish will frequently produce diametrically opposite effects. Still further, I have taken at one time a pill of thirty grains, which hardly gave a perceptible phenomenon, and at another, when my dose had been but half that quantity, I have suffered the agonies of a martyr, or rejoiced in a perfect frenzy. So exceedingly variable are its results that, long before I abandoned the indulgence, I took each successive bolus with the consciousness that I was daring an uncertainty as tremendous as the equipoise between hell and heaven. Yet the fascination employed Hope as its advocate, and won the suit. 2d. If, during the ecstasy of Hashish delirium, another dose, however small, yes, though it be no larger than half a pea, be employed to prolong the condition, such agony will inevitably ensue as will make the soul shudder at its own possibility of endurance without annihilation. By repeated experiments, which now occupy the most horrible place upon my catalogue of horrible remembrances have I proved that, among all the variable phenomena of Hashish, this alone stands unvarying. The use of it directly after any other stimulus will produce consequences as appalling, 17.
The effects of the Hashish increased, as it always does, with the excitement of the visions and the exercise of walking. I began to be lifted into that tremendous pride which is so often a characteristic of the fantasia. My powers became superhuman; my knowledge covered the universe; my scope of sight was infinite, 17.
What mattered it that my far-off battlements were the walls of a college, my mighty plain a field, and my wind of balm but an ordinary sunset breeze? To me all joys were real; yes, even with a reality which utterly surpasses the hardest facts of the ordinary world, 17.
Upon William N., Hashish produced none of the effects characteristic of fantasia. There was no hallucination, no volitancy of unusual images before the eye when closed. Circulation, however, grew to a surprising fulness and rapidity, accompanied by the same introversion of faculties and clear perception of all physical processes which startled me in my first experiment upon myself. There was stertorous breathing, dilatation of the pupil, and a drooping appearance of the eyelid, followed at last by a comatose state, lasting for hours, out of which it was almost impossible fully to arouse the energies. These symptoms, together with a peculiar rigidity of the muscular system, and inability to measure the precise compass and volume of the voice when speaking, brought the case nearer in resemblance to those recorded by Dr. O'Slaughnessy, of Calcutta, as occurring under his immediate inspection among the natives of India than any I have witnessed, 17.
Repeatedly have I wandered past doors and houses which, in my ordinary condition, were as well known as my own, and have at last given up the search for them in utter hopelessness, recognizing not the faintest familiar trace in their aspect. Certainly a Hashish-eater should never be alone, 17.
In William N., I observed, however, one phenomenon which characterizes Hashish-existence in persons of far different constitutions, the expansion of time and space. Walking with him a distance not exceeding a furlong, I have seen him grow weary and assume a look of hopelessness, which he explained by telling me that he could never traverse the immensity before him. Frequently, also, do I remember his asking to know the time thrice in as many minutes, and when answered, he exclaimed, "Its it possible? I supposed it was an hour since I last inquired." His temperament was a mixture of the phlegmatic and nervous, and he was generally rather unsusceptible to stimulus, 17.
Suddenly Bob leaped up from the lounge on which he had been lying, and, with loud peals of laughter, danced wildly over the room. A strange light was in his eyes, and he gesticulated furiously, like a player in a pantomime. Suddenly he stopped dancing, and trembling, as with an indefinable fear, he whispered, "What will become of me?" 17.
Having taken Hashish and felt its influence already for several hours, he still retained enough of conscious self-control to visit the room of a certain excellent pianist without exciting the suspicion of the latter. Fred, threw himself upon a sofa immediately on entering, and asked the artist to play him some piece of music, without naming any one in particular. The prelude began. With its first harmonious rise and fall the dreamer was lifted into the choir of a grand cathedral. Thenceforward it was heard no longer as exterior; but I shall proceed to tell how it was embodied in one of the most wonderful imaginative representations that it has ever been my lot to know. The windows of nave and transept were emblazoned, in the most gorgeous coloring, with incidents culled from saintly lives. Far off in the chancel monks were loading the air with essences that streamed from their golden censers; on the pavement of inimitable mosaic knelt a host of reverent worshippers in silent prayer. Suddenly, behind him, the great organ began a plaintive minor, like the murmur of some bard relieving his heart in threnody. This minor was joined by a gentle treble voice among the choir in which he stood. The low wail rose and fell as with the expression of wholly human emotion. One by one the remaining singers joined in, and now he heard, thrilling to the very roof of the cathedral, a wondrous miserere. But the pathetic delight of hearing was soon supplanted by, or rather mingled with, a new sight in the body of the pile below him. At the farther end of the nave a great door slowly swung open, and a bier entered supported by solemn bearers. Upon it lay a coffin covered by a heavy pall, which, being removed as the bier was set down in the chancel, discovered the face of the sleeper. It was the dead Mendelssohn! The last cadence of the death-chant died away; the bearers, with heavy tread, carried the coffin through an iron door to its place in the vault; one by one the crowd passed out of the cathedral, and at last, in the choir, the dreamer stood alone. He turned himself also to depart, and, awakened to complete consciousness, beheld the pianist just resting from the keys. "What piece have you been playing?" asked Fred. The musician replied it was "Mendelssohn's Funeral March." This piece, Fred, solemnly assured me, he had never heard before. The phenomenon thus appears inexplicable by any hypothesis which would regard it as a mere coincidence. Whether this vision was suggested by and unconscious recognition of Mendelssohn's style in the piece performed, or by the awaking of some unknown intuitional faculty, it was produced as an original creation, I know not, but certainly it is as remarkable an instance of sympathetic clairvoyance as I ever knew, 17.
In the broad daylight of a summer afternoon, I was walking in the full possession of delirium. For an hour the expansion of all visible things had been growing towards its height; it now reached it, and to the fullest extent I apprehended what is meant by the infinity of space. Vistas no longer converged; sight met no barrier; the world was horizonless, for earth and sky stretched endlessly onward in paralleled planes. Above me the heavens were terrible with the glory of a fathomless depth. I look up, but my eyes, unopposed, every moment penetrated farther and farther into the immensity, and I turned them downward, lest they should presently intrude into the fatal splendors of the Great Presence. Unable to bear visible objects, I shut my eyes. In one moment, a colossal music filled the whole hemisphere above me, and I thrilled upward through its environment on visionless wings. It was not song, it was not instruments, but the inexpressible spirit of sublime sound-like nothing I ever heard-impossible to be symbolized; intense, yet not loud; the ideal of harmony, yet distinguishable into a multiplicity of exquisite parts. I opened my eyes, but it still continued. I sought around me to detect some natural sound which might be exaggerated into such a semblance; but no, it was of unearthly generation, and it thrilled through the universe and inexplicable a beautiful, yet an awful symphony. Suddenly my mind grew solemn with the consciousness of a quickened perception. And what a solemnity is that which the Hashish-eater feels at such a movement! The very beating of his heart is silenced; he stands with his finger on his lip; his eyes are fixed, and he becomes a very statue of awful veneration. The face of such a man, however little glorified in feature or expression during his ordinary states of mind, I have stood and looked upon with the consciousness that I was beholding more of the embodiment of the truly sublime, than any created being could ever offer me. I looked abroad on fields, and waters, and sky, read in them a most startling meaning. I wondered how I had ever regarded them in the light of dead matter, at the farthest only suggesting lessons. They were now, as in my former vision, grand symbols of the sublimest spiritual truths-truths never before even feebly grasped, and utterly unsuspected. Like a map the arcana of the universe lay bare before me. I saw how every created thing not only typifies, but springs forth from some mighty spiritual law as its offspring, its necessary external development, not the mere clothing of the essence, but the essence incarnate, 17. [160.]
As I have frequently said, I felt no depression of body. The flames of my vision had not withered a single corporeal tissue nor snapped a single corporeal cord. All the pains induced by the total abandonment of Hashish were spiritual. From the ethereal heights of Olympus I had been dropped into the midst of an Acherontian fog. My soul breathed laboriously, and grew torpid with every hour. I dreaded an advancing night of oblivion. I sat awaiting extinction. The shapes which moved about me in the outer world seemed liked galvanized corpses; the living soul of nature, with which I had so long communed, had gone out like the flame of a candle, and her remaining exterior was as poor and meaningless as those wooden trees with which children play, and the cliffs and chalets carved out of boxwood by some Swiss in his winter leisure. Moreover, actual pain had not ceased with abandonment of the indulgence. In some fiery dreams of night, or some sudden thrill of daylight, the old pangs were reproduced with a vividness only less than amounting to hallucination. I opened my eyes, I rubbed my forehead, I arose and walked; they were then perceived to be merely ideal; but the very necessity of this effort to arouse myself, a necessity which might occur at any time and in any place, became gradually a grievous thraldom, 17.
Constantly, notwithstanding all my occupation of mind, the cloud of dejection deepened in hue and in density. My troubles were not merely negative, simply regrets for something which was not, but a loathing, a fear, a hate of something which was. The very existence of the outer world seemed a base mockery, a cruel sham of some remembered possibility which had been glorious with a speechless beauty. I hated flowers, for I had seen the enamelled meads of Paradise; I cursed the rocks, because they were mute stone; the sky, because it rang with no music; and earth and sky seemed to throw back my curse, 17.
An abhorrence of speech or action, except towards the fewest possible persons, possessed me. For the sake of not appearing singular or ascetic, and so crippling my power for whatever little good I might do, I at first mingled with society, forcing myself to laugh and talk conventionalities. At last, associations grew absolutely unbearable; the greatest effort was necessary to speak with any but one or two, to whom I had fully confided my past experience. A footstep on the stairs was sufficient to make me tremble with anticipations of a conversation; every morning brought a resurrection into renewed horrors, as I thought of the advancing necessity of once more coming in contact with men and things, 17.
Gradually it grew the habitual tendency of my dreaming state to bring all its scenes, whether of pleasure or of pain, to a crisis through some catastrophe by water. Earlier in the state which ensued upon my abandonment of Hashish, I had been affrighted particularly by seeing men tumble down the shafts of mines, or, as I have detailed, either dreading or suffering some fall into abysses on my own part; yet now, upon whatever journey I set out, to cross the Atlantic or to travel inland, sooner or later I inevitably come to an end by drowning, or the imminent peril of it, 17.
Gradually my rest began to be broken by tremendous dreams, that mirrored the sights and echoed the voices of the former Hashish like. In them I faithfully lived over my past experience, with many additions, and but this one difference. Out of the reality of the Hashish state there had been no awakening possible; from this hallucination of dreams I awoke when the terrors became too superhuman, 17.
The existing mood is heightened, 21.
All his feelings of pleasure and pain seem exalted, 8.
Feeling of exhilaration (after five hours), 13.
The excitement seemed to increase all his powers. "I was bursting with an uncontrollable life; I strode with the thews of a giant," 17.
Cannot say he has any decidedly elated feelings, but only a tendency that way, which he repressed (after eight hours), 5.
Elevation of spirits, with a feeling of lightness in the body in the evening, 1. [170.]
Alarming exaltation, with strange hallucinations, 22.
Exaltation of spirits, with excessive loquacity, 1.
Exaltation of spirits, with great gayety and disposition to laugh at the merest trifle, 1.
For one hour and three-quarters, better humor and lightness of the mind, nearly unmindful of the medicine (after forty-five minutes), 13.
Felt very jolly, bursting into laughter; talked nonsense; knew that he was talking nonsense, but could not stop (after one hour), 11.
Full of fun and mischief, and laughs immoderately, 1.
Everything that he saw seemed ludicrous (after one hour and a half), 20.
He whistles and wishes to hug every one he meets, 1.
Propensity to caress and chafe the feet of all bystanders, 29.
Slight inclination to laugh, 34. [180.]
Suddenly inclined to laugh; sang alone very joyously; wondered at my own singing, 24.
Desire to laugh at every remark made by his companions, because it was so funny, 41.
Laughed heartily several times, 33.
Laughs indiscriminately at every word said to him, 1.
Laughed long and heartily, but never lost the feeling of intense anxiety with which he awoke, 15.
Frequent involuntary fits of laughter, 6.
Uncontrollable laughter, till the face became purple and the back and loins ache, 1.
Uncontrollable laughter, and a succession of vivid and pleasurable ideas, 29.
Laughed at the idea of laughing, and could not control himself, 3.
Spasmodic laughter, seemingly increased by flatulence rising in his throat threatening to choke him and to make him vomit; there was, however, no nausea, 1. [190.]
Burst into an immoderate fit of laughter without any cause, and was obliged to retire on account of repeated recurrence of the fits (after two and one-quarter hours), 35.
Perpetual giggling, 29.
Moaning and crying, 1.
Involuntary weeping; the tears seem blood, 1.
For a day or two, depression of spirits, and disinclination to study, 8.
Great depression of spirits, with weariness, and a pale face, 1.
Fits of mental depression, 8.
Feels wretched, 1.
Very subdued feeling; marked taciturn tendency (after four hours), 13.
Thinks each one he meets has some secret sorrow, and wishes to sympathize with him, 1. [200.]
No power of will, 8.
His power of will, with regard to the commands of others, seemed intact, but not over himself, except under a strong stimulus. Thus, when Mr. H. came into the room, not wishing to be thought drunk, he lay down on a sofa, and could restrain himself from talking by a great effort, but when he did speak to Mr. H., he slightly wandered. When Mr. H. left, he went on as before, 8.
Loquacity, 29.
Conversed with great volubility; very happy to see them, and begging them to stay with him, "as he was at the point of death" (after one hour), 37.
Taciturnity, 1.
After dinner, the tranquil taciturnity came on. She saw, she observed, she paid attention, but she could not open her mouth to speak, 40.
She talked during the early part of the meal, but afterwards lapsed into a tranquil taciturnity, 40.
Disposition to remain perfectly quiet, without speaking (after four hours), 13.
The anxiety and weakness overcame him to such a degree that he lost all power of will, and his attendants were obliged to hold him up under the arms in order to get him along, 20.
Great anguish and despair, 1. [210.]
Anguish accompanied by great oppression; ameliorated in the open air, 1.
He was in constant fear he would become insane, 1.
Fear of spectres, 1.
Horror of darkness, 1.
Great apprehension of approaching death, 1.
Dread of "congestion, apoplexy, hemorrhage, and a multiplicity of deaths." Fear of death, which is thought near, 17.
Went upstairs all right; avoided the coal-scuttle, of which he seemed to be somehow afraid, 8.
Did not dare to use his voice, in case he should knock down the walls, or burst himself like a bomb, 28.
Very passionate, 1.
Very sarcastic, 1. [220.]
Felt displeased when his name was called out, at 3 A.M., by a friend, who told him to take care of a coal-scuttle at the foot of the stairs, 8.
Extreme intolerance of contradiction, 17.
He grows suddenly suspicious of all persons and things, 17.
The most delightful ecstasy was converted into deepest horrors, and horrors, when present, were greatly aggravated by darkness, 17.
Some had great fear, at times, of things either real or unreal, and at other times the mind wandered into delightful realms, 3.
Indifference to the world; the mind seems blunted; a reckless indifference to the dictates of conscience (after seven hours), 5.
Intellectual.
My mind was capable of a greater effort for a while afterwards. During the succeeding week, I read a work on Psychology of over seven hundred pages, and could for a long while refer to any part of it without my notes. This I could not have done before nor since, 2.
He seemed to examine his own character, though in an incomplete manner, 20.
Tendency to make puns, and talk about grammatical questions, 25.
Thoughts rush so rapidly that it is impossible to write them, 17. [230.]
Inability to recall any thought or event, on account of different thoughts crowding on his brain, 1.
On the next day, he was unable to attend to his business on account of his diffused thoughts, which he was unable to collect, 20.
He wished to write down his symptoms, but he had to give up the attend on account of the wandering of his thoughts, 1.
It was only after repeated trials that he made a memorandum, while persons were conversing in the room, on account of his not being able to attend to more than one thing at a time; new ideas would constantly occur to him, which occupied his mind a time; new ideas would constantly occur to him, which occupied his mind for a short time, when others would rise; all seemed to come in a misty sort of way, and the time elapsing between one train of thought and another, seemed to him long, although really short, 1.
His brains seemed cataleptic; he commenced to do something; his fingers moved slowly, a new thought presented itself, which he pursued for awhile, then another would suggest itself; in this manner ideas passed through his mind, not quickly but as though each one stopped there a little while on account of the torpidity of his brain; the slow motion of his fingers seemed to be caused by the cataleptic state of his mind, 1.
Very absent-minded, 1.
Occasionally absent-minded and dreamy (second day), 3.
Pays no attention when spoken to, 1.
Answered questions incoherently, and immediately forgot what they were about and what I had answered, 33.
Wanted to refer to something in his MS.; had to stop and think what he wanted to find, and where to look for it; had to think for some seconds before he could bring his mind to the subject (after one and a half hours), 14. [240.]
Writes one word for another, 1.
He could not read, partly on account of dreamy spells, and partly because he had not full power of vision, 1.
In the morning, some letters were brought for him, but he could not read or understand them properly (second day), 8.
On referring to a MS. index of cases of poisoning, etc., he did not seem to know where to look for what he wanted; when found, he read it over two or three times without seeming to understand it (after one hour), 14.
Stupidity, 21.
Stupidity and forgetfulness, but without reverie, 34.
Stupid and forgetful (second day), 33.
More stupid (second day), 34.
His usual forgetfulness improved under the proving, 19.
Tales of youth again charmed his existence; pictures and scenes long forgotten were again for an instant as plain as if seen only a day before, 27. [250.]
Remembered events that had happened, and ideas that had passed through his mind when a child, as about toys. (Does not now remember them distinctly, but recollects that he could then call them to mind), 8.
All the thoughts and deeds of his childhood returned, 20.
Tried to write down a reference in his MS. Wrote down the first half correctly, though feeling he might write some nonsense in the state he was; on attempting to finish it, did not know what it was he had to write, and could only do so by looking constantly at the passage in the printed book while he wrote it down in the MS., and even then omitted something, 14.
Memory weak (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Memory seemed failing him, 8.
His memory seemed gone (afterwards, however, he remembered nearly all that had taken place), 8.
Great defect and shortness of memory (second day), 33.
Forgetful; was not able to recite the simplest sentence, 24.
His forgetfulness caused those present to smile, upon which he laughed in a very silly manner, 1.
He forgot his last words and ideas, and spoke in a low tone with a thick voice, as if tired, 1. [260.]
Forgetfulness then liveliness, 23.
He begins a sentence, but cannot finish it, because he forgets what he intends to write or speak, 1.
When repeating some French sentences, forgot the beginnings before he came to the endings (after four hours), 5.
In conversation, cannot recollect of what he was speaking (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Sprang from his bed like a maniac, struck a light, took his watch and began to count his pulse, just one beat at each second; but when the minute had elapsed, could not remember how many he had counted, 3.
The most familiar objects appear strange and are not recognized, 17.
Felt he knew where he was, and yet did not (after one hour), 11.
Cloudiness of internal and external consciousness, 21.
He seems as if he had lost his consciousness for a time, which gradually returns, 17.
Every few moments he would lose himself, and then wake up, as it were, to those around him, 1. [270.]
While listening to the piano, he loses consciousness, and is seemingly raised gently through the air to a great height, when the strains of music become perfectly celestial; on regaining consciousness, his head is bent forward, his neck is stiff, and there is a loud ringing in his ears, 1.
At night, unconsciousness, delirium, and semi-unconsciousness alternate, 19.
He was unconscious of a severe chill, 20.
Candlelight obliterates all consciousness, 19.
Candlelight produces stupefaction of the senses, compression of the brain, paralytic feeling of the whole body; everything appears without color, 19.

HEAD

Confusion and Vertigo.
Forehead confused, heavy (after one hour), 4.
Vertigo, 1, 22, 23.
Vertigo (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Vertigo on rising, 1.
Vertigo on rising, with a stunning pain in the back part of the head, and he falls, 1. [280.]
Vertigo, with backward inclination of the head (first day), 7.
On walking, slight inclination to vertigo (after five hours), 4.
Head dizzy (second day), 3.
Dizziness in head (after two hours), 14.
Dizziness as in intoxication (second day), 7.
Dizziness on bending forward, or walking (first day), 7.
Strong coffee relieved the dizziness (second day), 3.
Giddiness (after one hour), 33.
Giddiness; the everything seemed turning round, for some time (after one hour), 12.
Transient feeling in head as if something were going round in it, from before backwards, on right side (after one hour and one-sixth), 14. [290.]
Peculiar feeling of moving, or what is called swimming in head, with transient feeling of constriction round head (after one hour and two-thirds), 14.
Scarcely any effect while sitting quiet, but on beginning to walk, perhaps three hours afterwards, staggered, and was quite drunk. These symptoms would abate on sitting down, but would be again reproduced on rising, 32.
General Head.
Frequent involuntary shaking of his head, 1.
Dulness of head (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Felt an opium-like dulness in the head (after one hour), 5.
Seething or crisping of blood through the brain, quick, like a flash of sheet lightning, 44.
For several months, in fact for nearly a year afterwards, I was troubled with a crisping sensation in the brain, just as I fell asleep or awoke from sleep; not every night, but probably once a week, 2.
The head felt light, mind remarkably active, and yet apparently sluggish, 3.
Head heavy, confused, with vertigo (after one hour and a half), 4.
His head feels very heavy; he loses consciousness and falls, 1. [300.]
Heaviness of the head, wandering of the mind, and apprehension that he was going to faint, 26.
Pain from bottom of orbit, through brain and in the ear, 44.
Fulness of the head, with a sharp intermittent pain in the right side, under the parietal bone, 1.
Gradual expansive feeling of the brain, as if myself were apart from myself and dwelling in a new world, within the cavity of the skull, 6.
Fulness in the head, with drowsiness and flushes in the face, 1.
Curious constrictive feeling in head, with inability to think (after two hours), 9.
Great constriction in head, as from an iron skull-cap, 8.
Head feels achy and confused (second day), 5.
On awaking, headache, 21.
Severe headache, especially at the vertex, with beating (second day), 7. [310.]
Intermittent headache, in a spot on left side of head, near the anterior-inferior angle of parietal bone (after one hour and two-thirds), 13.
Dull, heavy, throbbing pain through the head , with a sensation like a heavy blow on the back of the head and neck, 1.
Heavy insurmountable pressure on the brain, forcing him to stoop, 1.
In warm room again compression of brain, with paralytic feelings, 19.
The head feels bruised, with a pressive pain, 1.
On regaining consciousness, violent shocks pass through his brain, 1.
Headache while in the sun, 1.
Coffee almost instantly relieved the headache following, 3.
Forehead.
Pains in forehead for some time (after one hour and a half), 12.
Heavy frontal headache (in about thirty provers), 3. [320.]
Heavy frontal headache in the brain, more to left side, 44.
Heaviness and heat in the forehead very slight, and short-lasting (after three hours), 4.
Heat in the forehead, 1.
Fulness in the forehead, as if it would burst, 1.
Fulness and heaviness in forehead, with pressure at root of nose and over the eyes; headache over left eye; dull hard pain in top of head; pain in back of head, left side, 44.
Dull drawing pain in the forehead, especially over the eyes, 1.
Pressure on his forehead and top of his head, which seemed to cause his slowness of speech and action, 1.
All the afternoon had headache, pressing outwards over the eye, 44.
Throbbing, aching pain in the forehead, 1.
Jerking in the right side of the forehead, towards the interior and back part of the head, 1.
Temples. [330.]
Burning pain in both temples, 1.
Aching in both temples, most severe in the right, 1.
Dull sticking pain in the right temple, 1.
Darting, throbbing pain in the right temple, and from the back of the head to the forehead, 1.
Severe stitch in the right temple, gradually changing to a pressive pain, 1.
Parietals.
Pain in the whole right side of the head, 1.
Sharp pain in right side of head, running from inner canthus of eye up, back, and out (after eleven hours), 44.
11 A.M., boring pain in right parietal protuberance (third day), 44.
Occiput.
Headache in occiput and temples (first day), 7.
Fulness in the right side of the cerebellum, with a dull pain, worse on shaking the head, 1. [340.]
Sensation of pressure at the back of the head, before the occurrence of convulsive movements, which changed into an unpleasant feeling of heat, then of cold, in consequence of which his hands were carried automatically to that spot, and held there, as though there were a difficulty in detaching them, 39.
Feeling of something surging up from posterior part of head toward forehead (after two hours), 14.
Feeling, for a few seconds, of something surging like waves up the neck into the head, seeming to press it forwards (after one hour and one-sixth), 14.
External Head.
Scalp and skin of forehead felt as though tightly stretched over skull, as a bladder is stretched over a jar (after one hour and two-thirds), 13.
Soreness of the scalp to touch, 1.
Crawling in the scalp on the top of the head, 1.
Pressing pain on different spots of the cranial bones, in the left wrist and ankle, and violent pain in the muscles below the left shoulder-blade (after three and a half hours), 4.

EYE

Objective.
Wild-looking eyes (first day), 7.
Seemed to have awakened suddenly, and stared wildly about him (after one hour), 37.
Fixed gaze, 1. [350.]
Eye has an expression of cunning and merriment, 29.
On looking at himself in the mirror was struck with the small drunken appearance of the eyes (after eight hours), 5.
Languid eyes; heaviness of the head (second day), 1.
Eyes swollen and inflamed (second day), 3.
Eyes dull and swollen (in about thirty provers), 3.
Subjective.
Weakness of the eyes, 1.
Heaviness in the eyes, 1.
Heaviness and pressure over the eyes, with nausea, 1.
Heat in the eyes, 1.
Feeling of burning heat, more marked in the eyes than in the lids, and severe (after three hours), 13. [360.]
Burning and smarting in the eyes, 1.
Great pressure in the right eye, 1.
Orbit.
Pain as from a blow over the orbit of the right eye, 1.
Lids.
Bloodvessels of upper eyelids become very full and distended, with feeling of heat (after one hour and one-sixth), 13.
Contraction of the eyelids (second day), 7.
Drooping appearance of the eyelids, followed at last by a comatose state, lasting for hours, out of which it was almost impossible fully to arouse the energies, 17.
Twinkling of the eyes (first day), 7.
His eyelids feel very heavy, and he can only partially open them, 1.
Burning and itching of the edges of the eyelids, 1.
Slight soreness of upper eyelids (after one hour and two-thirds), 13. [370.]
A cool burning-stinging in inner corner and canthus of left eye and adjacent side of nose, 44.
Jerking in the external corner of the eye and eyelid, 1.
Jerking from the head to the outer canthus of the left eye, from above downwards, 1.
Lachrymal Apparatus.
Inflammation and swelling of the caruncula lachrymalis of both eyes, 1.
Conjunctiva.
Conjunctiva congested, without any abnormal sensation there, 12.
Conjunctiva of eyes covered with distended vessels (after three hours), 13.
Injection of the vessels of the conjunctiva of both eyes, 1.
The vessels of the conjunctiva of both eyes are injected in a triangular patch extending from the internal canthus to the cornea; worse in the night, 1.
Ball.
Slight pain at back of eyeball, 44.
Feeling of distension of eyeballs, as if starting out of head; they ached when he tried to read (after one hour and a half), 10.
Pupil. [380.]
Dilatation of the pupil, 17.
Pupils moderately dilated, iris somewhat sensitive to the light, conjunctiva somewhat injected, 20.
Pupils widely dilated, 15.
Pupils contracted (second day), 3.
Clairvoyance (in about thirty provers), 3.
Apparent clairvoyance, that is, I saw or fancied I saw, articles in another room, but the sensation was of short duration (after four hours), 3.
At midnight precisely, awoke suddenly and fully; the room was dark, still the location of every article about him seemed perfectly plain; he could read the titles of books upon a table twelve or fifteen feet off (after four hours), 3.
As soon as he had urinated, the clairvoyant-like vision left him, 3.
Weakness of sight, 21.
Slight rather hazy, 8. [390.]
He cannot see, with the exception of a small spot where he looks, 1.
Sensitiveness of the right eye to the light, with lachrymation, 1.
Ugly faces assume a pleasing expression, 1.
Faces assume such ridiculous appearances that he bursts into fits of laughter, 1.
The room seemed larger (after one hour), 11.
The globe of the lamp appeared of an enormous size, 8.
Whatever he looked at became lost, as it were, in a maze; the lamp appeared to be slowly turning round, and when he lost sight of this, the red lines in the paper of the room appeared to intertwine in a most beautiful manner, 33.
Photopsia, 21.
While reading, the letters run together, 1.
Twinkling, trembling, and glimmering before the eyes, 1. [400.]
A large spot hovers a little above the vision of the left eye, sinking when he looks down, rising when he looks up, 1.
Violent spots on the paper, while reading, 1.
The flame of a candle seems surrounded by a pea green circle, 1.

EAR

Pain and singing in left ear, 44.
Burning in the ears, 1.
Stuffed feeling of the right ear (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Aching in both ears, 1.
Boring pain immediately above and back of right ear (after three hours), 44.
Boring pain in right ear, 44.
Tearing pain in the right ear, ameliorated by pressure, 1. [410.]
Throbbing and fulness in both ears, 1.
Jerking or electric shocks in the ears, 1.
Hearing.
Great acuteness of hearing, 17.
Sensitiveness to noise, 1.
Increase in power of hearing, whereby slight noises became as loud as thunder, 28.
Sounds seem unusually loud, 1.
His own voice seems intensely loud. Believes he has been talking indecently loud, when he has not spoken at all, 17.
Music of any kind is intensely agreeable to him, 1.
Difficult hearing, 21.
His own voice sounded to him a long way off (after one hour), 11. [420.]
Noise in the ears like boiling water, 1.
Buzzing in ears, lasting some time (after one hour), 12.
Buzzing in right ear, 8.
Buzzing in ears, with slight giddiness (after two hours and a quarter), 35.
Singing in ears (after one hour), 11.
Singing in ears, while lying down, dozing, which went off when he got up (after one hour and two-thirds), 14.
Periodical singing in the ears, that always ceased as soon as he came to himself, and renewed itself when a dreamy spell came on, 1.
Singing in left ear, 44.
Ringing and buzzing in the ears, 1.

NOSE

Sneezing (after one hour and three-quarters), 19. [430.]
He blew coagulated blood from his right nostril, 1.
Dry, feverish feeling of left nostril (after three hours), 44.
Pain at the root of the nose, 1.
Fulness and aching at the root of the nose, 1.

FACE

Objective.
Thinks his expression must be altered, as people look at him more than usual (after three hours), 5.
Wearied, exhausted appearance, 1.
He looks drowsy and stupid, 1.
He looks as if thoroughly intoxicated, 1.
Pale face (first day), 7.
Face a little pale (second day), 5. [440.]
Face pale and anxious (after one hour), 37.
Paleness of face, as in fainting, ameliorated by fresh air, 19.
Face flushed, from mounting the stairs, 41.
Redness of the face, as during intoxication, 1.
The face and eyes became very red, 20.
By a great exertion moved his hand and felt his face, and it felt hard; there was no sensation in the face, but to the hand it felt stony, 3.
The skin of his face, especially of his forehead and chin, feels as if it were drawn tight, 1.
Feeling of pressure on both cheeks, in corresponding spots, about posterior border of malar bone. This did not last long (after one hour and one-sixth), 14.
Stinging in right side of face as though stuck with pains; leaves on scratching, but comes again immediately on another part of body, 44.
Drawings in the muscles of mastication, 44. [450.]
Sensation as though the muscles of the face were drawn tightly around the jaw, 44.
Pain in right upper jaw, at root of first molar tooth (after four hours), 44.
His lips are glued together, 1.
Jerking of the lower lip, 1.
A well-marked burning line from lip to chin, straight down left side, as though it were a cicatrix (after nine hours), 44.
Cold burning (like turpentine) in vermilion border of lip and point of nose, left side, 44.
Before falling to sleep, the lower jaw was very stiff and immovable, 5.
Some had tetanus at the moment water was taken; others had some froth at the mouth, 3.

MOUTH

Teeth.
Gritting and grinding of the teeth while sleeping, 1.
The teeth of right side of mouth seem to him to be clenched. (This condition was not noticed by his friend, and was probably subjective), 8. [460.]
Aching in all the teeth of the upper jaw, which felt as if they were loose, 1.
Pain in lower molar teeth, right side, 44.
Boring pain in right lower molar teeth, better from pressure, worse from grinding them together, 44.
Dull pain in right molar teeth (after three hours), 44.
Heavy throbbing at the roots of the teeth, 1.
Soreness at the union of the front teeth and gums, especially on the inside, with sensitiveness to the touch of the tongue, 1.
Cessation of toothache (after one hour), 33.
Felt no pain, while quite conscious that the toothache was present (after one hour), 33.
Tongue.
White-coated tongue (second day), 7.
Tongue white and sickly-looking (second day), 5. [470.]
In morning, tongue white and foul, with a bad taste, as if he had been intoxicated over night (second day), 5.
6 A.M. Before rising, a considerable collection of thick mucus on tongue (second day), 44.
Tongue feels dry, as if scalded (second day), 44.
Tongue and throat have a dry feeling, but no particular desire for water, 44.
Peculiar, somewhat metallic sensation on right half of tongue, 8.
Tongue as if covered with pepper (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Stinging-burning, as of a blister, on back part of tongue, right side, at anterior pillar of fauces (after three hours), 44.
General Mouth.
Some dryness of mouth, without thirst (after one hour and a half), 10.
Dryness of the mouth and lips, 1.
Dryness of the mouth, which was not thirst . The dryness radiated from the back of the throat, opposite the nape of the neck, 26. [480.]
Dryness of mouth, with thirst, for some time (after half an hour), 12.
Dryness of mouth, with thirst, all day (second day), 8.
When in bed, had dryness of mouth lasting until next morning, with thirst (after one hour), 11.
Very dry mouth and fauces, so that he could hardly speak or swallow (after half an hour), 27.
Mouth dry and frothy (after four hours), 3.
Saliva.
Foaming at the mouth, 1.
Increased flow of thick, tasteless saliva, 44.
Slight exudation of resinous saliva, or rather mucus, from tongue, 43.
Viscid mucus from tongue, over its whole upper surface, 44.
White, thick, frothy, and sticky saliva, 1.
Taste. [490.]
Every article of food is extremely palatable, 1.
Bitter mouth (second day), 7.
Taste of copper in the mouth, 17.
Metallic taste on tongue, 43.
Metallic taste on tongue, with dry sensation and exudation of gummy mucus, 45.
Speech.
Stammering and stuttering, 1.
His lips failed of utterance as if paralyzed, 17.

THROAT

The carotid and temporal arteries beat slower and weaker than usual, 20.
Hawks up in the morning glairy lumps with a spot of blood in each, 1.
Dryness and roughness in the throat, 1. [500.]
A dryness in the throat led to a request for water, 41.
Feeling of uneasiness, as though from dryness of the throat, or rather a sensation that the tongue and throat were covered with a dry, soft body, 39.
The attempt to smoke a cigar in the open air had to be abandoned on account of the dryness and rawness of the throat, 20.
The throat is parched, accompanied by intense thirst for cold water, 1.
Sensation as of a fleshy body at the pit of the throat, impeding deglutition, 1.
Sensation of a plug rising in his throat, causing him to choke, 1.
Burning sensation in throat, 27.
Pressure in tonsils (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Scraping of the pharynx, eructations, and slight nausea (soon), 20.

STOMACH

Appetite.
Appetite increased, 21. [510.]
Increased appetite, 1.
Enormously increased the appetite, 26.
Increased appetite at dinner (second day), 8.
1.30 P.M., increased appetite; had a good lunch (had had no breakfast), (second day), 8.
One effect to which all patients testified, and without being interrogated, was that it improved their appetite and general health, and seemed to improve all their secretions, 31.
Appetite strong (second day), 31.
Great appetite, 12.
Excellent appetite for supper at 6, but mouth still very dry, 27.
Great hunger for several days (second day), 7.
Ravenous hunger, 1. [520.]
Ravenous hunger, which is not decreased by eating enormously; he ceases eating only from fear of injuring himself, 1.
Bulimia, 29.
At tea, ate voraciously, 35.
At tea, ate ravenously, without feeling satisfied, 33.
Pastry and fat food, which previously he never ate without suffering from rancid risings and headache, are now digested easily, 1.
He eats large quantities of bread, declaring it to be delicious, 1.
Little appetite (first day), 7.
Loss of appetite (in about thirty provers), 3.
Loss of appetite (second day), 7.
He has intense thirst, and yet he fears to drink, for he will be suffocated by the magnitude of the stream as it passes down his throat; and again it is not water, but the most delicious metheglin that he swallows with superhuman delight, 17. [530.]
Desire for and dread of water (in about thirty provers), 3.
Had a great craving for water, but a single swallow passing down the throat gave the sensation as of holding his mouth under a cataract; a spasm came upon him, with a sensation of fear or dread, but this was only for an instant (after four hours), 3.
Eructations.
Eructations reminding him of the extract (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Eructations when moving (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Eructations of tasteless wind, which relieve a dull pain in the epigastric region, 1.
Slight but continual eructations of wind, tasteless, 44.
For one hour, frequent empty eructations of wind, flavored with Cannabis (after two hours), 44.
Nausea.
Nausea, 1.
Slight nausea (after four hours), 5.
Stomach.
Sinking at the stomach, 1. [540.]
Cold feeling in stomach, very disagreeable, as though he had drunk cold water (soon after), 44.
Sensation of warmth in the stomach, changing to an aching pain, accompanied by oppression of the chest, 1.
Burning sensation in stomach, for some time (within one hour), 12.
While eating, his stomach felt so swelled and his chest so oppressed, as if he would suffocate, that he was forced to loosen his clothes, 1.
Crampy pain in the stomach, 1.
Agonizing clutching in the stomach, 1.
Sensation of weight at stomach, 40.
Cutting-griping pain in the stomach, 1.
Pain in pit of stomach; nervous grumbling sensation in stomach, coming on every few moments, and extending up into the thorax, 44.
Slight pain at pit of stomach, followed by a very marked pricking sensation; these pains cease after a meal (first day), 7. [550.]
Pain in the cardiac orifice , relieved by pressure, 1.

ABDOMEN

Stitches in right hypochondrium, when breathing (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Immediately on lying down again, a disagreeable rumbling in the abdomen, as though a looseness was coming on (immediately), 44.
Disagreeable flatulent rumbling in the bowels, at night, when lying down, 44.
The abdomen feels swelled; relieved by belching up a considerable quantity of wind, 1.
Stitches above the symphysis pubis, 1.

RECTUM AND ANUS

Tenesmus, 21.
Sensation in the anus as if he were sitting on a ball; as if the anus and a part of the urethra were filled up by a hard round body, 1.

STOOL

Painless yellow diarrhœa was present in every case (in about thirty provers), 3.
Two liquid stools, besides frequent ineffectual urging (first and second days), 4. [560.]
Had a discharge from the bowels (after five hours), and in half an hour had another. They were thin, yellow, and painless. The diarrhœa increased, and heat pervaded the abdomen internally, and frequent discharges of this kind followed, but entirely without pain, 3.
Constipation, 21.
Constipation followed the proving, 20.
In one or two cases, a little constipation for a few days, 3.
Costiveness, 1.

URINARY ORGANS

Kidneys.
Pain in the kidneys, when laughing, 1. [570.]
Burning in the kidneys, 1.
Aching in the kidneys, keeping him awake at night, 1.
Sharp stitches in both kidneys, 1.
Urethra.
Slight inflammation of the orifice of the urethra, 1.
On squeezing the glans penis, a white glairy mucus oozes out, 1.
Uneasiness in the urethra, 1.
Feelings in the urethra as if there were a gonorrhœal discharge, 1.
Pain and burning during urination, 1.
Burning pains in the urethra, worse in the evening, 1.
Burning and scalding before, during, and after urination, 1. [580.]
Intense burning at the orifice of the urethra, during urination and afterwards, 1.
Stitching in urethra, 4.
Stitches in urethra (second day), 4.
Stitching pains in urethra and anus for one minute (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Stitching in the end of the urethra (after eleven hours), 4.
Stitching in end of urethra (evening and night), (second day), 4. [590.]
Stinging pain before, during, and after urination, 1.
Sharp prickings, like needles, in the urethra, so severe as to send a thrill to the cheeks and hands, 1.
Constant inclination to urinate (after one hour and three-quarters), 18.
Continual desire to urinate (second day), 44.
Although the urine had been voided on retiring, a great desire was felt to pass more, which he essayed to do, but could scarcely retain it until the vessel could be got ready (after four hours), 3.
No desire to urinate (first day), 44.
Urging to urinate, but he cannot pass a drop, 1.
Urging to urinate, with much straining, 1.
The urging continues after urination, 1.
Micturition.
Frequent micturition of much urine, 12.
Frequent micturition in night, much in quantity, 11.
Urinating frequently, but in a small quantity, 1.
Frequent urination, with burning pain, in the evening, 1.
At night, frequent urinating; urine dark, 4.
Urinating every hour, 1.
Was obliged to urinate several times; at the beginning, with difficulty, 20.
Could not voluntarily retain the urine, 20.
Profuse colorless urine, 1. [600.]
Copious discharge of clear, light-colored urine, 1.
Immense flow of urine in a full, clear stream, 1.
As much urine was passed as is usually collected during the whole night (after four hours), 3.
He has to wait some time before the urine flows, 1.
He has to force out the last few drops with his hand, 1.
For several days, incomplete passage of urine, which could only be finished be violent pressure, 4.
The urine dribbles out after the stream ceases, 1.
The stream suddenly stops, and then flows on, 1.
The urine passes freely at times, then again in small quantities, with burning and biting, 1.
Urine.
Urine clear, and in great quantity (third day), 7. [610.]
Thick red urine (second day), 7.
Urine darker, but without sediment and more scanty, 4.

SEXUAL ORGANS

Male.
Excitement of the genitals, 21.
Satyriasis, 1.
Erections while riding, walking, and also while sitting still; not caused by amorous thoughts, 1.
After coition, the erection continues so long and becomes so painful that he has to apply cold water to the penis, 1.
Violent erections, 1.
Priapism, 1.
Chordee, 1.
Penis relaxed and shrunken (after one hour and three-quarters), 19. [620.]
Uneasiness, with burning sensation in the penis and urethra, accompanied by frequent calls to urinate, 1.
The sexual thrill is very much prolonged, with more than a dozen ejaculations of semen, 1.
In the night, during coitus, little or no sensation. Scarcely any emission or sensation, but soon after a rather acute pain in the loins, which lasted a short time (quite unusual), (second day), 5.
The sexual thrill consists merely of an intense burning, with no ejaculation of semen, 1.
Sticking-burning soreness in he glans penis, 1.
Itching of the glans penis, 1.
Itching and burning of the scrotum, 1.
Aphrodisia, 29.
Aphrodisiac feeling to an unusual degree (after seven hours), 5.
Excessive venereal appetite, with frequent erections during the day, 1. [630.]
Excessive discharge of prostatic fluid, at night, during a hard evacuation, 1.
Female.
Very profuse menstruation, which lasted five days (in two women, after 10 grains, on two occasions), 3.*
Nymphomania, 1.
Excites sexual desire, but causes sterility, 42.

RESPIRATORY ORGANS

Voice.
The pitch of the voice is much higher, 1.
Talks in so low a tone as not to be heard, and laughs excessively when told of it, 1.
Inability to measure the compass and volume of the voice when speaking, 17.
Cough.
Rough cough, scratching the breast immediately under the sternum, 1.
Slight dry cough (after four hours), afterward becoming harder, but still dry, almost like a bark, 3.
Hard, dry cough (in about thirty provers), 3.
Respiration. [640.]
Hot breath, 1.
Stertorous breathing, 17.
Difficult respiration, 21.
It requires great effort to take a deep inspiration, 1.
The least pressure on the stomach brings on a fit of suffocation, 1.
Desire for open air, 23.

CHEST

Pains in thorax (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Anxious sensation in chest, and rapid, irregular, small beats of the heart, almost all day (second day), 4.
Heaviness of chest in walking (after forty-five minutes), 19.
Burning in chest, 21. [650.]
On ascending some steps quickly, felt a constricted pain across the chest on a line with the heart; it only lasted a moment or two; never felt such a pain before (second day), 5.
Pains pressing, stitching, in thorax and extremities (after one hour and three-quarters), 19.
Oppression on chest, 8.
Oppression of the chest with a pressive and tightened sensation in the pit of the stomach, 20.
Oppression of the chest, with deep, labored breathing. He feels as if suffocated, and has to be fanned, 1.
Considerable oppression of chest, as if suffocation would surely supervene; increased by mounting the stairs, 41.
Stitches extending from supervene; increased by mounting the stairs, 41.
Sharp, cutting pain behind the sternum, aggravated by swallowing, 1.

HEART AND PULSE

Præcordium.
Oppression in præcordium, 23.
Sense of weight in region of heart (soon after), 36. [660.]
Indescribable sensation of oppression about heart; feeling of sickness at heart; heart's beating seemed to him to be very much embarrassed, sharp and quick, weak and small; its contractions seemed jerky. This condition of heart lasted until he went to bed, about 3 A.M., 8.
For a long time after, annoyed and alarmed by pains about the heart, 41.
Pricking pains, apparently on surface of heart, off and on, 13.
On breathing, the heart feels as if it rubbed against the ribs, 1.
Felt sick at the heart. (The last word really refers to the heart, and not to any other part), 8.
Anguish at the heart, 1.
Pain in the heart, with palpitation of the heart, 1.
Pressing pain in the heart, with dyspnœa the whole night, 1.
Sticking pains in small circumscribed places in the heart, 1.
Painful sticking as with the prongs of a fork in the heart, 1. [670.]
Stitches in the heart, accompanied by great oppression; the latter relieved by deep breathing, 1.
Heart's Action.
Impulse of the heart very weak, at times scarcely perceptible, 20.
Intense and rapid beating of heart, and widely dilated pupils (after half an hour), 27.
Small, uneven, anxious beats of the heart, when sitting or stooping (after three hours), 4.
Palpitation of the heart, awakening him from sleep, 1.
Painful palpitation of the heart, 1.
Pulse.
Slight increase in the force of the pulse (after one hour), 33.
His pulse seemed to him to be full and bounding, 8.
His pulse began to throb heavily, and his head to be dizzy, 3.
Increased quickness of pulse, 29. [680.]
Pulse quickened, 21.
Slight increase of pulse, 30.
Pulse beating at a tremendous rate, but so feebly that he could not feel the impulse of the heart against the chest, 15.
Pulse, as counted by a friend, 120, full and bounding. It is usually about 84 at this time, 8.
His pulse he counted to be 130, 8.
Pulse 150-160 (after half an hour), 27.
Pulse very feeble (soon after), 36.
Pulse below the natural standard, as low as 46, 1.
Pulse very small and slow, with long intermissions, 20.
Pulse at the wrist frequently intermitting, often not noticed for a minute, and when it returned it was remarkably weak, and only felt with great care; afterwards it became more decided and more frequent and rose eighteen beats above the normal, 20.

NECK AND BACK

Neck. [690.]
Aching in the nape of the neck, in the right shoulder, and in the right ear, 1.
Back.
Peculiar feeling like a stream of warm water, which gradually stole up the back, and made its way to the brain (after half an hour), 27.
Sensation as though a red-hot iron rod was passed from sacrum up the spine to the atlas, around the occiput, over the eyes from right side stopping at left ear, leaving a feeling as if charred, taking six hours to perform the passage, 44.
Stunning pain between the shoulder-blades, 1.
Pain across the shoulders and spine, forcing him to stoop, and preventing him from walking erect, 1.
4 P.M. very severe on the outer edge of trapezius muscle (second day), 44.
Reflex movements of spinal column; a wavelike motion beginning at dorsal region, and extending to pelvis, alternately raising and depressing first the dorsum, afterwards the pelvis, slowly and involuntarily. While the dorsum and shoulder were pressed against the bed, the lumbar and pelvic regions were slowly elevated, and then slowly but firmly depressed while the dorsum was slowly elevated, 6.
Cold feeling in small of back and between the shoulders, 44.

EXTREMITIES IN GENERAL

Objective.
Seized with a sort of gesticulatory convulsions in the arms and legs, and by degrees his symptoms assumed the appearance of those which characterize hydrophobia, 39.
Paralysis of the lower extremities and right arm, 1.
Subjective. [700.]
Pleasant numbness in the limbs (after one hour), 33.
Unpleasant shuddering through all the limbs, with a painful feeling of weight in the occiput, and a tetanic intermittent contraction of the muscles of the nape of the neck, 22.
Leaden feeling in the limbs, as though he could not move them, for some time (after two and a half hours), 12.
Tired feeling in the limbs, with disposition to retire to bed, 1.
Pains in wrists and ankles (second day), 4.
Pains in the joints (second day), 7.

UPPER EXTREMITIES

Objective.
Trembling of the arms and hands, 1.
Inability to raise the right arm, with coldness of the right hand, 1.
Subjective.
Curious shooting pain in left arm, from shoulder to tip of middle finger, producing in the finger a feeling of internal soreness, the same as is felt in neuralgic pains. The pain at one time concentrated itself in the pulpy part of the ungual phalanx, and at another at the upper part of the axillary border of the scapula, whence it seemed to radiate, like the spokes of a wheel, for a distance of two inches (after one hour and two-thirds), 13.
Agreeable thrilling through the arms and hands, 1.
Shoulders. [710.]
Lameness of the shoulders, 1.
Feeling in the shoulders as if beaten, particularly in the left shoulder, 1.
Arm.
Pain in the front of the arm and back of the elbow, 44.
Elbow.
Pain as from fatigue in the bend of the right elbow (at 7 A.M., first day), 7.
Forearm.
Unable to raise his hands, the feeling being as if a weight was upon the forearm, 3.
Heaviness of forearm and feet (in about thirty provers), 3.
Wrist.
Pains in left wrist (second day), 4.
Hands.
Constant rubbing of hands, 29.
Shaking of the hands so that he cannot write, 17.
The hands feel monstrously large, 1.
Fingers. [720.]
Sudden appearance of redness in all the fingers, with burning and pricking in the joints, 1.
Sharp sticking pain in the fingers, 1.
Aching in the finger-joints, 1.

LOWER EXTREMITIES

Objective.
Unsteadiness of gait; not that of one who fears to fall, but of one who tries to keep down, for he felt as if there were springs in his knees, and was reminded of the story of the man with the mechanical leg, that walked away with him, 26.
While going along a plank walk, just one board wide, every now and then, and suddenly, the right leg would shoot to the left, missing the plank. After observing this muscular freak a few times, the attention was centred upon locomotion, with a view of preventing a repetition of the erratic misstep. Out shot the leg again and again, defying volition, and invariably going over to the left, 41.
Entire paralysis of the lower extremities, 1.
He is unable to walk upstairs, on account of an almost entire paralysis of the limbs, with stiffness and tired aching in both knees, 1.
Limbs unable to support him (after two hours and a quarter), 35.
Legs hardly able to support body, 27.
The right limb suddenly gives way and he falls, 1. [730.]
About 3 A.M., having roused himself to sobriety, he went to bed. Stumbled down the steps on leaving his friend's room, 8.
Lameness of the right limb drawings in the calves, 1.
Great weakness of the left leg, 1.
Weariness in both limbs, almost amounting to paralysis; worse in the left, 1.
Subjective.
His limbs feel very large, 1.
Agreeable thrilling in both limbs from the knees down, with a sensation as if a bird's claws were clasping the knees, 1.
The right limb feels paralyzed when walking, 1.
Tired feeling in the left limb, 1.
Numbness of the left limb and foot, 1.
Hip.
Pain in the right hip. Pain in the left thigh-bone, 1.
Thigh. [740.]
Pain in itching in left leg just above the knee, 44.
Knee.
Laming pain, with drawing and aching in the right knee, 1.
Tearing pain in left knee (after fifteen hours), 4.
The patellæ feel as if forcibly dragged down, 1.
Leg.
A strange, painful lassitude in both legs (after fourteen hours), 4.
Aching pain in leg, near left external malleolus, while lying on back, not when lying on side, 44.
Sensation of cramps in the calves of the legs, which rendered the movement of the legs impossible, or caused them to be distended, or to take a sudden jump, 39.
Ankle.
Pain in right ankle (evening), 4.
Foot.
He drags his feet when walking, 1.
His feet repeatedly go to sleep, 1. [750.]
On attempting to walk, his feet felt heavy; his hands were with difficulty raised, as the forearm felt as if kept down by weights (after four hours), 3.
On attempting to walk, he experienced intensely violent pains, as if he trod on a number of spikes, which penetrated the soles of his feet and ran upward through his limbs to his hips; worse in the right limb, and accompanied by drawing pains in both calves ; these pains forced him to limp and cry out in agony, 1.
Numb feeling of the sole of the left foot, then the foot, increasing to a numbness of the whole limb, 1.
Burning in the soles of the feet, 1.
Sticking in the soles of the feet, 1.
Numbness in the joints of both feet, 1.
Bone-pain in metatarso-phalangeal joint of right foot, 44.
Toes.
Shooting pains in the joints of the toes of the left foot, worse in the great toe, 1.
Violent pains in the joints of right great toe (forenoon and evening), (third day), 4.
Aching and stitching pain in the ball of the left big toe, 1. [760.]
Pricking and aching in the joints of the big toes of the left foot, 1.

GENERAL SYMPTOMS

Objective.
Determination of blood to surface, 29.
Great excitation of the whole system, as if the blood were circulating very quickly; as if streams of it were poured from below towards the head, which felt dull, while his eyes were glistening; on walking, he could scarcely find his way; everything seemed dark and perverted; on reaching home great cheerfulness and serenity, as though an unseen power lifted him up into other and higher regions; everything appeared too small and too dark; frequent protestations that he saw something unearthly, and could accomplish great things; he saw spirits dancing around him as happy as himself; his hearing was very acute; the slightest noise, as the beating of his own heart, seemed too loud; violent thirst; cataleptic and epileptic attacks, 22.
Strange, balancing gait, 29.
From time to time shaking of the whole body, 1.
Catalepsy, 21.
Sometimes catalepsy, 29.
He did things automatically, 1.
Cannot avoid running against people in the street, 1.
Unconsciously walks sidewise in the street, 1. [770.]
Creeps on hands or knees in open air, 23.
During the intoxication, when the spells of laughter came on, he stamped with his feet, and raised his body up and down on the sofa in a violent manner, 1.
Closed his eyes and tried to think of something solemn. Suddenly felt as if he were a marble statue; had no ability to move, and a chill all over him, 3.
Feels as if under the sedative influence of an opiate (after three hours), 5.
Disinclination to physical labor, 1.
Felt idle in morning (second day), 5.
Luxurious indolence and erotic delirium, 22.
Great desire to lie down in the daytime, 1.
Much torpidity (second day), 33.
Feels greatly fatigued, 1. [780.]
Relaxation of muscular power (after four and a quarter hours), 13.
Felt very weak (second day), 20.
Felt as if weak, chiefly about the knees (after two and a quarter hours), 34.
Great muscular weakness, 21.
Too weak and nervous to work, 27.
He felt so weak that he could scarcely speak, and soon fell into a deep sleep, 1.
Thoroughly exhausted from a short walk, 1.
Prostration (soon after), 36.
State of collapse (nearly ending in death), 38.
As soon as he closed his eyes he fell into a state of syncope, 22. [790.]
Sense of vague uneasiness, 41.
Felt in the highest degree nervous, 27.
Nervous, restless feeling over the whole body, 44.
Impulse to change about from place to place, 22.
After experiencing peculiar visions and sensations a necessity for exercise came on; he raised himself as if by some elastic power, struck himself on the breast, and began to sing and dance in the most extravagant manner, 22.
Feeling of numbness, 28.
Felt a peculiar numbness creeping through body and limbs, 33.
Skin insensible to irritation, for example, to mustard, brushes, etc., 20.
Was unconscious that mustard has been placed to his feet, and that they had been rubbed with brushes; the sensitiveness of the skin seemed to be completely blunted, 20.
Gradually total anæsthesia, 1. [800.]
Anæsthesia extended all over his body. It gradually decreased, but the sensibility did not return universally, nor steadily, there being frequent relapses, 39.
Subjective.
An indescribably "queer" pervaded the whole body (after one hour), 41.
There was also a curious sensation connected with the air, but he cannot recollect it, 8.
Feeling of lightness on motion was very marked, 20.
Feeling of lightness or buoyancy, as though he could fall like a cork, without sustaining harm (after four and a quarter hours), 13.
Especially characteristic was the sensation as if his body were raised up from the ground, and as if he could fly away, 20.
Felt as if under influence of intoxicating drink (after half an hour), 27.
Felt drunk (after one hour), 12.
Felt drunk (after one hour and a half), 10.
Woke in morning not quite sober (second day), 8. [810.]
Felt very badly, 8.
After going to bed, sensation of heaviness or drowsiness; could not lift his arms or legs (after one hour), 11.
Rigidity of the muscular system, 17.
Felt the characteristic thrill produced by the drug (after exactly four hours), 3.
Agreeable thrilling through the body and extremities, 1.
All agree that the first symptom is experienced after the lapse of some hours, and is uniformly a thrill through the whole frame to the finger-ends, and through the brain, followed by great terror, 17.
Hand a real Hashish thrill, so violent that I took hold of a counter to prevent myself from reeling, experiencing the same want of confidence in myself and anxious terror I had felt on taking the larger dose (after one hour), 43.
The right side of the body seemed to him to be greatly enlarged, so that he thought if he thus continued to grow he must bend over to opposite side, 8.
Sensation as if single parts had become larger and thicker, e. g ., the lower lip seems swollen to the level of the nose, or the nose so large as to obstruct vision, 21.
Sudden, dull, aching pain and constriction, mixed with numbness and tingling, as if he had been electrified. It began in right upper arm, extending down the arm and up to the axilla, gradually passing down to the feet, and then up to the head. It was chiefly felt in arm and axilla. This feeling came on and off like a wave of sensation; it was confined entirely to the right side, and seemed to stop at the mesial line. (The prover's right side was next the fire), (after forty minutes), 8. [820.]
Suddenly a great degree of oppression; everything seemed too narrow to him; features became distorted; he became pale; the oppression increased to anxiety, with a feeling as though his blood mounted to his head in a boiling condition, 20.
The symptoms develop themselves mostly on the right side, 1.
It affects persons of the highest nervous and sanguine temperament with the strongest effect; the bilious nearly as much; the lymphatic but slightly, with such symptoms as vertigo, nausea, coma, or muscular rigidity, 17.

SKIN

Formication, 21.
Itching in face, shoulder, abdomen, and feet, relieved by scratching, 44.
Itching of nose continually, 44.
Itching of the sole of the foot, 44.

SLEEP AND DREAMS

Sleepiness.
Sleepiness (after one hour), 11.
Sleepiness, drowsiness, 44.
Day sleepiness, 1. [830.]
Excessive sleepiness, 1.
Great sleepiness in the afternoon, 1.
Became sleepy without any previous excitement or exhilaration; it is a muddled state (after four hours), 5.
More than usually sleepy in the evening (after fourteen hours), 5.
Felt sleepy, for some time (after two and a half hours), 12.
Drowsiness, with cold feeling of back of head and neck, as though air blew thereon, 44.
Great drowsiness, even in daytime (second day), 7.
Species of interrupted drowsiness, 40.
Felt drowsy, and fell asleep in arm-chair (after two hours), 14.
In morning felt drowsy, and still under the influence of the drug; the drowsiness lasted till 1.30 P.M., with alternate waking and sleeping, but the waking was a pleasant dreamy state (second day), 8. [840.]
On going to bed fell into a drowsy state, in which he imagined that the finger-nails of both hands were about the size of plates, very curved, but otherwise of natural shape; on opening and shutting the fingers (subjective or objective?) they seemed to slide over one another like a fan; and on tapping them against a hard surface (subjective or objective?) a delicious sensation was produced, 8.
Feeling of sleep; could easily sleep if he were to lie down and give way to the feeling; but when necessary he could always rouse himself (after four hours), 13.
Strong inclination to sleep, and therefore hurried to bed, without undressing, 27.
Stronger disposition to sleep, which continued for half an hour (after six and two-thirds hours), 13.
Was obliged to yield himself to sleep (after four hours), 5.
Indisposition to rise in the morning, 1.
Frequent intervals of sleep (after one hour), 33.
Seemed to go to sleep now and then for a few moments, which, however, appeared very much prolonged, with pleasant dreams; then woke up, and wrote down these notes, 8.
Gave him a double portion of sleep, 26.
After a full nights rest he slept soundly the whole of the next day, 1. [850.]
Prolonged and tranquil sleep, 1.
Slept three days and three nights, with the exception of those times he was awakened to eat his meals, 1.
Sound sleep, 1.
Sound sleep with melancholy dreams, 1.
Slept soundly, 35.
Slept soundly at night, 33.
Sleep, like that of one "dead drunk," 41.
At night, slept profoundly, no dreams, 5.
Slept very quietly, without dreams, 27.
When asleep, looked stiff, as if dead, with the lower jaw down, 5. [860.]
Starting of the limbs while sleeping, which awoke him, when he feared he would have a fit, 1.
Screaming while sleeping, 1.
Talking during sleep, 1.
Dozed a little on a sofa, in a friend's room; was heard chuckling to himself; woke up every five minutes, when it seemed to him as if hours had elapsed. After his friend had gone to bed, kept waking up, thinking he was still in the room, but on rousing himself, recollected all; then relapsed (after two hours), 9.
All the afternoon, alternate dozing and waking; the same pleasant dreamy state when waking (second day), 8.
After dinner, dozing and waking as before. Took coffee, which removed it (second day), 8.
Sleeplessness.
Woke once in night, which is unusual, 13.
Woke at 4 A.M. and at 7 A.M., which is very unusual, 13.
He wakes at 6 o'clock in the morning, with fulness of the head and heaviness of the body, 1.
He wakes soon after midnight, with intense thirst, 1. [870.]
He wakes before midnight in a state of semi-consciousness; with inability to move; palpitation of the heart, slow, deep, labored, and intermittent breathing, and a feeling as if he were dying, 1.
He wakes before midnight, overcome with dreadful sensations; imagines that he is going to be choked, cries and moans for some time, when all the objects in the room appear their respective sizes, and he falls asleep again, 1.
Wakeful all night; mild, pleasant dreams; cat-naps (second day), 44.
The only effect was to make him lose a night's rest, 26.
When in bed, not able to go to sleep; mind wandered rapidly from one subject to another; he seemed to be dreaming with open eyes, for he saw, heard, and noticed everything around him, 27.
Dreams.
She seemed to dream with open eyes, and the time appeared to her very long, 40.
When he ceases to exercise his will, he falls into a kind of dream; the period of this dreamy state seems painfully prolonged; he feels as if he never would get through the night, 8.
In the daytime, dreams, returning periodically, or dreamy attacks, 1.
The dreams lasted about an hour, and then changed to a slight headache, with he felt till late at night, 27.
Vivid dreams, sometimes ecstatic (second day), 7. [880.]
A variety of delightful dreams came over him (after two hours and a quarter), 35.
Very delicious dreams; cannot remember much of them now, 8.
Voluptuous dreams, with erections and profuse seminal emissions, 1.
Prophetic dreams, 1.
Vexatious dreams, 1.
Slept well, with the exception of an ugly dream, 5.
Woke in the midst of a wild, shapeless dream, in a state of extraordinary agitation, and bathed in perspiration, 15.
Dreams of danger, and of perils encountered, 1.
Dreams of dead bodies, 1.
Nightmare every night, as soon as he falls asleep, 1. [890.]
Sleep which before the habit of taking Hashish, was always with dreams more or less vivid, was during the whole period of the indulgence entirely dreamless, 17.

FEVER

Chilliness.
Loss of animal heat, 1.
Coldness of surface (soon after), 36.
Shivering (first day), 7.
A pleasant cooling seemed suddenly to affect the whole body, 24.
Coldness and shivering, with external heat (second day), 7.
General chilliness, 1.
Hard shaking chill, with the following symptoms: loud chattering of the teeth; coldness of the body and extremities; profuse cold sweat; tired feeling in the limbs, with aching in the joints; dry mouth, with thick white sticky saliva; intense thirst; drinking of large quantities of water; staggering and falling on attempting to walk; thumping in the head and heart; inability to rise from a stooping position on account of a crushing weight on the cerebellum, neck, and shoulder; blindness, with the exception of a small point immediately where he looks; extremely slow and full pulse; seeming descent of the ceiling to crush him; earnest belief that he is dying, but cannot cry for help; falling to the floor and lying for some time unconscious; sleeping for three nights and three days afterwards, 1.
9 A.M., and icy coldness across the root of nose, comes on when leaning forward writing, goes away when moving about (third day), 44.
Coldness of the face, nose, and hands, after dinner, 1. [900.]
Coldness of the right hand , with stiffness and numbness of the right thumb, 1.
Coldness of the hands, feet, and especially of the nose, after dinner, with shivering, shaking, and inability to get warm, 1.
Extremities, upper and lower, cold, at times trembling, 20.
Heat.
The heat of the body was increased, 20.
In the cold, 2° F. below zero, he does not feel cold, although nearly undressed, 19.
Did not feel cold, while those who were walking with him, and wrapped in mantles, were complaining of it, 26.
Sensation of heat, 21.
Pleasant sensation of warmth, beginning in the spine and extending all thought the body (after one hour), 11.
While lying down, sensation of glow and warmth, 6.
Pleasant burning heat all over body, 8. [910.]
Burning in the skin of the body and extremities, 1.
Intense fever boiled in my blood, and every heart-beat was like the stroke of a colossal engine, 17.
Forehead and head only moderately warm, never hot, 20.
Warm tingling sensation, over the whole left side of face, 44.
Moist warmth of palms of hands, 44.
Feeling of warmth over front of body and arms, 44.
Sweat.
Slight sweat, 21.
Sweat on front of limbs, and moist feeling of whole body, especially the front, 44.
Profuse sticky sweat, standing out in drops on his forehead, 1 . No sweat for several days, 20.

CONDITIONS

Aggravation.
( Morning ), Tongue white, etc.; before rising, mucus on tongue; hawks up lumps.
( Afternoon ), Easily excited, etc.; sleepiness.
( Evening ), Pains in urethra.
( Night ), Injection of the conjunctiva ; when lying down, rumbling in bowels; frequent micturition.
( Ascending stairs ), Oppression of chest.
( When in bed ), Dryness of mouth, etc.
( When breathing ), Stitches in hypochondrium.
( Candlelight ), Obliterates consciousness.
( Coffee ), The symptoms, especially those of the brain.
( After dinner ), Coldness of face , etc.; coldness of hands, etc.
( While eating ), Stomach feels swollen, etc.
( Grinding teeth ), Pain in teeth.
( When laughing ), Pain in kidneys.
( When lying down ), Singing in ears.
( While lying on back ), Pain in leg.
( On motion ), Eructations.
( On rising ), Vertigo, etc.
( Shaking head ), Fulness in cerebellum, etc.
( When sitting ), Small, etc., beats of the heart.
( On falling asleep ), Sensation in brain.
( Spirituous liquors ), The symptoms, especially of the brain.
( On stooping ), Dizziness; small, etc., beats of heart.
( In the sun ), Headache.
( Swallowing ), Pain behind sternum.
( Tobacco smoking ), The symptoms especially of the brain.
( Before during and after urination ), Stinging pain; burning , etc.
( On waking ), Sensation in brain; headache.
( On walking ), Inclination to vertigo; dizziness; heaviness of chest.
( In warm room ), Compression of brain, etc.
Amelioration.
( Fresh air ), Paleness of face.
( Deep breathing ), Stitches in heart, etc.
( Coffee ), Dizziness; headache.
( Washing in cold water ), The symptoms.
( Eructation ), Pain in epigastric region; swelling of abdomen.
( Pressure ), Pain in right ear; pain in teeth; pain in cardiac orifice.
( Rest ), The symptoms.

SUPPLEMENT: CANNABIS INDICA. Authorities.

28 , Th. Gautier, History of Dreams, Visions, etc., Brierre de Boismont, M.D., Phil., 1855, chap. xiv, p. 334 (S. A. Jones, Am. Hom., Obs., vol. xii, 1875, p. 409); 46 , (Berridge), Pharm. Journ. and Trans., 1841, vol. vi., p. 127, a medical friend tried it in several cases; 47 , (Berridge), La Presse, June 22d, 1845, two dervishes took it after concluding their prayers; 48 , (Berridge), Mr. Bartlett, Pharm. Journ. and Trans., 1847, vol. vi, p. 70, a young man took a small dose of extract; 49 , (Berridge), Chas F. Hodson, Med. Times and Gaz., 1852, vol. iv, p. 450, a boy took 1 to 1 1/2 grains extract five or six times daily for tetanus; 50 , Bost. Med. and Surg. Journ, vol. xlvii, 1852, p. 218, a druggist took 6 grains; 51 , History of Dreams, Visous, etc., Brierre de Boismont, M.D., Phil., 1855, chap xiv, p. 334 (S. A Jones, Am. Hom. Obs., vol. xii, 1875, p. 409); 52 , Jonh G. Bell, M.D., Bost Med. and Surg. Journ., vol. lvi, 1857, p. 211, took a moderately large dose of extract with coffee; 53 , Obs. sur Le Chanvre Indigène, by Prosper Albert, Strasbourg, 1859, took 0.03 grm.; 54 , ibid., took 0.02 grm.; 55 , ibid., M. L. took 0.03 grm.; 56 , ibid., M. L. took 0.15 grm.; 57 , ibid., M. C. took 25 miligrams; 58 , ibid., same, took 0.35 grm.; 59 , F. H. Brown, M.D., bost. Med and Surg. Journ., vol. lxvii 1862, p. 291, C. C. took 6 grains of solid extract within one hour and a quarter; 60 , (Berridge), Mr. Sherly Hibbard, Intell. Obs., 1863, vol. ii, p. 435, took about a drachm on a July evening; 61 , G. B. Kuykendall, M.D., Phil. Med. and Surg. Rep., vol. xxxii, 1875, p. 421, took about 1 grain just before dinner; 62 , Berridge, U. S. Med. Invest., 1876, N. S., vol. iv, p. 574, Mr. --- took 1 drachm of tinct; 63 , Mr. Maximovitch, Meditsinsky Vestorick (Hom. World, vol. xii, 1877, p. 226); 64 , (Berridge), David Urquhart, The Pillars of Hercules, vol. ii, p. 122; 65 , Berridge, Organon, vol. i, 1878, p. 335, Madden and Desgenettes, general effects.

MIND

I soon became conscious of a sense of disappointment. I said, "That was not Hasheesh, but some preparation of chocolate." I took my pen to write an indignant letter to my friend who had procured it, that he might know that I had not become an easy dupe to his plan for deceiving me. I was at a loss how to begin the letter, though otherwise always ready at writing, even when fatigued, as I then was, from sitting up two successive nights reading Jacob Behmen. For a moment I paused, considering, and then the parietal bones expanded widely, as if parting at the sutures, and again collapsed with a sort of shuffling sound. I said, "This is the result of fatigue; I have read too hard, I will go to bed." As I rose from my table I became conscious of an agreeable state of warmth and lightness, I felt as if I had taken Scotch whiskey. The room seemed larger than usual, and getting larger and larger still; some skulls of animals on the walls acquired colossal proportions, and the conviction entered my mind that I had realized an old dream of living in the midst of the monsters of the colitic period, and that I had been awestruck for years, immovable, paralyzed, and with every faculty benumbed except that of wonder! I caught sight of my watch hanging in front of some papers on the wall, and it at once dispelled the illusion. I calmly looked at it, and found it was just twenty minutes since I took the Hasheesh. Immediately the watch expanded to vast dimensions, and its ticking sounded through my head like the pulsation of a world. I knew now for the first time that I was under the influence of the drug, and began to make a few notes in pencil. Suddenly my limbs seemed benumbed, my toes shrunk within my slippers, my fingers became like the long legs of a convulsed spider; I dropped the pencil and walked to the window. The landscape was so sublime that I forgot the cause of the illusion in my admiration of the magical scene. The horizon was removed to an infinite distance, but was still discernible, and the sunset had marked it out with myriads of fiery circles, all revolving, mingling together, expanding, and then changing to an aurora, which shot up to the zenith and fell down in sparks and splashes among the trees, which at once became illuminated, and the whole scene was grand beyond description, with fires of every conceivable color. All this time the landscape continued to expand; everything grew, as I looked on, to greater and greater proportions. Trees shot up higher and higher, their branches overspread the sky; they met together and became a confused mass; the lights, which just before had glowed on every hand, changed to a general purple haze. A sense of twitching in every limb, coupled with a feeling of weariness and depression, caused me to turn aside and sit down. The twitching changed to a sharp pricking sensation, most violent in the extremities, and for the moment the thought occurred to me that I had been poisoned by Strychnine. I opened a drawer to find an emetic, but the drawer had gone, and in its place sat one of my antediluvian monsters grinning at me, a real ichthyosaurus, with a red cap on its head, and with drum and pandean pipes. For about six weeks, so at the time I determined the period, it played a monotonous tune, while I sat on the ground laughing and enjoying the idea of my fingers and toes being elongated into claws, when suddenly the thought seized me that I would destroy the illusion by an effort. I dashed at the monster, and my head fell on the handle of the drawer. The dream was dissolved; I could clearly understand the ticking of my watch, and the singing of a bird in the garden, were the real sounds which my fancy had changed to drums and pipes of my oolitic companion. I once more looked at my watch, and though years seemed to have elapsed since the spell began, I found the real period to be but twenty-five minutes. This last act of observing the time again threw me off my balance, I said, "Twenty-five minutes, twenty-five days, twenty-five months, twenty-five years, twenty-five centuries, twenty-five æons; now I know it all, I am the alchemist who discovered the elixir of life in the dark ages, and I shall live forever. What is time to me? Yes, that was the elixir I took twenty-five minutes ago to experience a sensation, and there it goes round the room." It made me giddy to see it whirl like a wheel, of which I was the centre. There was a bust of Milton on the shelf, which had changed to the face of Jacob Behmen, and it sat on one of the spokes of the wheels, and smiled upon me with such a smile of peace and satisfaction that I shouted "Ha, ha!" The wheel revolved; it became brilliant with fiery coruscations; and by degrees the centre where I sat became the circumference, and I was whirled with it, my head opening and shutting, so that I could feel the cold air on my brain; my breath getting short and difficult, my chest falling, as if crushed by a weight, and my stomach gnawed by rats. This went on for ages; yet I knew all the while where I was, and how the whole thing had happened, and actually got up, rang the bell and ordered some coffee, though not for an instant did the illusion cease, nor, so far I ever learnt, did the servant who answered me discover any signs of my aberration. I thought of the coffee as likely to relieve the sense of oppression and disorder, which was now fast dispelling the illusion by its reality. I felt my pulse and tried to count it. I knew afterwards that it was full and rapid; but at the time the throbs were like the heaving of mountains, and the numbers would multiply themselves, so that as I counted "one, two, three," they became "one, two, three years, centuries, ages," and I literally shrieked with the overpowering thought that I had lived from all eternity, and should live to all eternity, in a palace of colored stalactites, supported by shafts of emerald resting on a sea of liquid gold, for this was now the appearance of things, and the gnawing at my stomach suggested the idea that I should be starved to death, and yet live the deformed wreck of a deluded man. At this moment there was a tap at the door, and the servant entered with the coffee. It was in a huge tankard, chased all over with dragons, that extended all round the world, and I saw the odor of it play round her in circles of light, and for at least an hour she stood smiling and hesitating where to place it, because my table was covered with papers. I very removed a few of the papers, and heaved a sigh that dissipated the dragons, made the odors fall in a shower of rain, and she put down the tray with a crash that made every bone in my body vibrate, as if struck by ten thousand hammers. I know not whether she was alarmed at my appearance, but she stood apparently aghast, and her rosy face expanded to the size of a balloon, and away she went with the rapidity of lightning, with Mr. Green in the car, and I stood applauding in the midst of thousands of lamps, which I had time to note, as the scene continued during a period which seemed indefinite, were all glow-worms, which I could touch, and they communicated to my fingers phosphorescent sparks, as if they had been rubbed with Lucifer matches. [Only a few days before I had some glow-worms in the garden, and on handling them, found my fingers tipped with a dull phosphoric glow. This probably gave rise to the illusion. In fact, I afterwards traced many of my sensations during the paroxysm to previous events, and almost believe the illusions are the result of abnormal memory.] But I knew this was unreal, and I drank the coffee with the most perfect composure, though I felt it difficult to pour it out without spilling it, and the cup came to my lips as if it were the rim of a caldron, seething with a stew of spices and nepenthe; and amid the steam I could see the fierceness and tartness and prima materia of Jacob Behmen, all displayed, so that there was an end of the mystery, and I could see into his brain, as he now seemed to be looking into mine. The moment I sipped the coffee it darted through me, and caused sensation of insupportable heat. The gnawing sensation of stomach and contraction of chest gave way to a sense of pricking, most violent in fingers and toes, and yet, though painful, this was all pleasant; and though I could now collectively observe the objects around me, yet they would transport themselves to immeasurable distances, and keep continually dilating in size; and though I looked at my watch, and saw that only forty minutes had elapsed, yet there was a secret persuasion in my mind that a period of at least forty centuries had gone by since I broke off a fragment of Hasheesh, and committed myself to this dream. There seemed to be now only one effect of the drug remaining, and that was a sense of warmth all over the body, and a tendency in my head to expand and fill the room. But my arms dropped down; I could not keep them up without great and painful effort. I finished the coffee, experienced less of the pricking sensation than at first, and then rose and went to bed. I could walk without difficulty, though my legs were immensely long, and felt as if they would presently be cramped, so that I should cry out. As I undressed myself, my clothes would fly from me far away into boundless space, and become wandering stars; the buttons of my vest glittered in the firmament like Orion, but much more vast and splendid. I did not dare to look out of the window. I endeavored to control myself, for I began to feel a sense of dread. As I got into bed the bed extended. As I lay down at full length, I myself extended; and as soon as I shut my eyes I felt that I covered the space of the whole earth. I had a sense of indescribable pain all over me. My skin seemed to move to and fro upon my flesh; my head swelled to awful dimensions, and I parted in two from head to foot; became two persons, each throbbing, breathing hard, sighing loudly, and lost in a commixture of ethereal, yet agonizing, colors and sounds. These seemed to continue for ages; but I was really asleep, and I never could call to mind at what time I went to bed, or at what point the illusion sleep came upon me, but I always supposed it to be when I felt myself parted in twain, and immersed in light and music. The next day I woke early, and seemingly unrefreshed. I lay some hours pondering upon the strange effects the drug had produced, and found it difficult for some time to prevent the intrusion of some broken fragments of the visions from taking possession of me; but when I had dressed and breakfasted I felt as well as usual. In a second experiment, when unaffected by fatigue, I noticed that every physical and mental power seemed intensified. The illusions were more agreeable and more ridiculous. I was the subject of a thousand different moods in the course of a few seconds, which, as in the former case, seemed ages; and these moods were nearly always swallowed up in some strange vision of walls receding, landscapes rolling away to a horizon they never reached, skies opening to views of boundless space, and sudden flashes before the eyes of visible odors, sounds, and ideas. The most remarkable feature of this paroxysm was a feeling that my soul was too large for my body, and must expand it to suitable dimensions. This pained me. I gasped for my breath, and felt my skin stretch and crack, and my joints fly like the snapping of huge beams of timber. These illusions became instantly the foundation ot others. The cracking of my skin became suddenly a display of fireworks, and the snapping of my joints the beating of gongs. Still pleasurable sensations prevailed; old memories were revived as pictures; and in many respects the effects resembled those of

Opium . But with Opium there is a more entire and settled acquiescence of the illusions, and the ideas are more continuous and connected. With Hasheesh there is a rapid succession of new scenes and startling combinations. Where there is no pain, the mind is literally whirled away in a succession of ravishing delights, and is yet all the while conscious that the whole affair is a deception. This paroxysm was soon over. It ended in a joyous feeling, in which life seemed lengthened out beyond the natural term, and all around me were objects of transcendent beauty, which I had the power of resolving into realities by an effort of the will; and it seemed that by successively using this effort the spell was broken, and the effect of the drug entirely destroyed. The third dose (of 4 scruples) was the last. I took it at midday, when in usual health and spirits. I at once went out and proceeded across Finsbury Square, in the direction of the city. It seemed that about a quarter of an hour had elapsed, during which I had a comfortable sense of warmth and an increasing tendency to open my mouth for air, though I was not aware of any difficulty of breathing. "Now," said I, "this is pleasant; I shall have a glorious time of it." Immediately a voice shouted, "There he goes, he always inflated." I was at once conscious that I was observed by passers-by to be expanding rapidly, and I felt myself rise from the ground and walk above it. I halted, and by an effort of the mind, collected myself, and found that the voice was that of a man selling some wares in Moorgate Street, who had not even noticed me, nor had any one else. But the thought occurred immediately, "This is a delusion; I am expanding, and cannot touch the ground." For a moment, it might be, but it seemed an indefinite period, I saw the whole city spread out before me as a diorama. The church bells rang joyously; the houses were illuminated; the horses had gold and silver trappings; the people were waltzing, singing, laughing, and playing with fireworks. I again exerted my will, and felt a disgust at the meanness of such a performance, so far short did it come of my own sense of sublimity; for I felt exalted, and had the utmost consciousness that I was able to separate the false from the true, though I really could not. I retraced my steps, and was accompanied home by triumphal bands of music, shouts of triumph, running footmen carrying colored flambeaux; and I gradually quickened my pace till I ran too, only touching the ground at intervals, but for the most part swimming through the air; yet knowing that I walked as other people, and knowing too that the ordinary sounds and scenes of streets were the foundation of the delusion. I reached my home and went to my study, with a sense of satisfaction that I was now in a safer position than in the streets under such an influence. I sat down and began to fill a pipe with Turkey tobacco. The pipe would lengthen out so that I could not reach the bowl, yet I did reach it; and, in like manner, the tobacco-jar seemed deep enough to serve for one of those used in "Ali Baba, or the Forty Thieves;" and it suddenly became a row of jars, and out of them leaped the forty thieves, with monkeys' faces and red jackets on. [I had seen a monkey on a barrel-organ during my walk, and tested my sanity by noting all its zoological features, in order to determine its species, but I lost it suddenly.] I lighted my pipe, and as the cloud rose, I saw all the party had lighted their pipes, and were all proper Arabs, and I was in the midst about to tell them a tale. By some strange freak they all suddenly collapsed, and became the double of myself, and yet they continued smoking. I now saw in the stomach of my double a huge cake of Hasheesh, which presently shot up into his brain, and I felt a hot throbbing of the head, and the thought occurred, "Why, if he has the Hasheesh, have I the burning, and how can that shadow smoke so calmly with a mass of poison in his brain?" I rose and propounded my double a problem, "How in the end, matter and spirit would be completely identified and made as one?" I was assured, in reply, that a sense of lightness would accomplish all, and I became as light as a feather; I swayed to and fro, I was lifted up, sparks flashed in my eyes, fire was emitted from my fingers, head, and stomach, and presently there was an awful crash, and I came to myself with the though that I was going mad. I saw the pipe in fragments at my feet, and the burning tobacco on the hearth-rug. I coolly picked it up with my hand, took another pipe, dropped the smoking tobacco into it, and saw my double again. This time he was the body and I was the shadow. I felt myself to be nothing. I was the soul, and beside me was the body. I thought I had now solved the problem of matter and spirit; I said, "They are only two forms of the same fact;" and I laughed aloud, and they all laughed with me, the umbrellas I mean, for my umbrella hung on a hat-rail, and it peopled the room with offspring; and away went the furniture and ornaments and books, all carrying umbrellas, dancing, whistling, and splashing water from the pools upon me, till I stamped my foot and smothered myself with sparks and planets and auroras, and sank back with a pain in the head that literally dispelled the delusions, and created a momentary alarm. I was now beset with prickings; I seemed to swell; I had a difficulty in breathing, and yet it was a pleasant one. I put the tobacco away, inspected everything about me, and thought of trying the effects of reading aloud and attempting to sing; but I found my strength gone, I was spellbound, so light I could not govern my movements, and by degrees I began to discover that the illusion was over, that it had left me tremulous, and with a low pulse, and requiring refreshment for my recovery. The first act, on fairly reviewing the case, was to seize the fragment of Hasheesh which remained and fling it up the chimney. It went up, and did not even return again. I saw it go into the sky, and become a bird, for the chimney was glass, and I could see through all its windings. I now felt that madness had really come upon me, and I began to bathe my temples and drink soda-water, and soon discovered that I had had a second paroxysm, for there lay the Hasheesh among the shavings in the fireplace. I applied a match; there was a glorious blaze; and I now saw it dissolve into a grand procession of colored lights, that died away and left me quietly and collectedly reflecting on the whole affair. This was the third paroxysm. There was yet one more, but of a trivial nature, and I had now done with Hasheesh, 60.

About half an hour after taking the medicine I was at the dinner-table, and we were all laughing and jesting, and enjoying our dinner meal with more levity than usual, I taking the lead in the merriment. I was just about finishing dinner, when suddenly I felt a thrill pass through me; the room and the dining-table seemed to rise up and swing, or float about. There was a sensation of lightness and dreaminess connected with everything. I had been conversing, but in the beginning of these sensations had leaned upon my elbow on the table, which attracted the attention of my wife, who asked what pained me. I answered that there was no pain, but that I experienced a peculiar kind of sensation which I hoped would soon pass away. Summoning up my will, I arose and walked into the parlor, and took a seat, and tried to compose myself; but the sensations continued to come on. For as few seconds after the first thrill, I thought all was going to pass off, but now the symptoms were increasing in intensity I arose and went to the glass to look at myself, and to notice the appearance of the pupils of my eyes. Up to this time I would not relieve I was under the influence of Cannabis. My condition rapidly grew worse, worse, I say, for my sensations were of the most disagreeable and horrible nature possible. I felt as if reason was being hurled by violence from its throne. Sensations and states of consciousness, rather than ideas, were wildly passing through my mind. I said to my wife, "I am in a terrible situation, something must be done." I called for an emetic. While it was being prepared, I was all the time becoming more and more restless and agitated. I arose and walked out into the hall, and thought to myself what is the use of me running around like a wild man, and returned and sat down in my chair, but could not be easy. The emetic was brought and I swallowed it. I then said, "Give me some warm water," and started for the kitchen. Some one proposed a hot foot-bath of mustard-water; I said, "Yes, let it be got immediately." A few minutes more and I was in the kitchen, before the stove, with my feet in a boiler of hot water. By this time my condition was awful in the extreme. My own voice sounded strangely to me when I spoke, while the voices of those about me sounded as if obscured by a gauze or veil over my senses; the sounds seemed far off, dreamy, and unreal. I was beginning to have a sort of double or even triple consciousness. It seemed as if I were living three lives at once. Anything spoken to me, immediately seemed to have an age ago. The few movements I made were governed by the will, and yet they seemed automatic, as I could not feel myself move. Indeed, I seemed to have lost my body and become all dreamy imagination. I moved occasionally, but had no physical sense of doing so. After swallowing a quantity of warm water, I unbuttoned my vest, but did not even seem to touch the buttons, and yet I must have had some sense of feeling, for I did not watch the movements of my hands. I saw with my eyes, but nothing was natural. I looked at the wall and objects around; an impression was made upon the sensorium and the visual impression seemed hurried off at lightning speed, then immediately the same impression was made with some different phase, while an age almost seemed to intervene between these changing states of consciousness. A moment seemed an eternity; the most terrible depression came on. My mental states and sensations seemed to move in circles. Rapidly, smoothly, and noiselessly, I seemed to be carried down a psychical maelstrom. The voices about me sounded in my ears as a dull dreamy droning, although I understood all that was said. Dissolution seemed imminent. Rapidly I was sinking down the horrid maelstrom of my own imagination, each revolution bringing me nearer to the pointed bottom below, which I thought would be death. I still could get out, by great effort of the will, as it seemed to me, short sentences; but when I spoke only three words, before the third was uttered the first seemed to be far in the distant past. When I spoke, I seemed as if started from a dream; a flash of light came before my eyes, and everything seemed to rise up suddenly before me. I remember that the floor seemed to be sloping up before me, and pitching off behind. I now labored fully under a triple consciousness, two dreamy and unreal, and underlying these, apparently, was my real self, obscured by the intoxication upon me. I seemed to pass successively from one state of consciousness to another. When in one state, I remembered the successive changes of sensation in that state that had occurred previously. Noise or movement seemed to transfer me immediately to another state of consciousness. In this new state, the recollection of the sensations in the other state were dim and soon forgotten, while I seemed to remember back in the line of consciousness in which I there was. Through all these wonderful psychical phenomena, I preserved a good degree of rationality. I remember distinctly to have reflected, "What is my condition?" "How long is it going to last?" I told the attendants Ipecac, would not vomit me, to get mustard and water. When they were going to give me lemonade, I tasted it, and said, "It is not sour enough, put in Citric acid, it is the acid that is antidote to the Hasheesh." During all the time I was sitting stupidly in a chair, before the stove, making but few movements. I lost all correct idea of time; a moment seemed an age. I thought they would never get the mustard for me. After drinking the mustard mixture I called for warm water, and thought they would never get it ready, and called for it, as I thought, about once every fifteen minutes, supposing they had forgotten to bring it. My wife says I spoke incessantly, repeating my request as fast as I could. As recollect now, it seems to me I called only three or four times for anything, and then at long intervals. I still seemed to be sinking down into the maelstrom, and was nearing the apex below, when suddenly I gave a retch, and began to vomit. While in the very act of straining to vomit I felt more natural, because, I suppose of the change of circulation within the cerebrum. The vomiting over, I felt I was about gone, and said, as it seemed to me, with an awful effort, "Put me in bed, I shall know nothing in a few minutes more." At one time I really thought I was entering the world beyond, and was wondering how things would appear, when something changed the current of my ideas. Just as I started to bed, I had reached the climax of wretchedness. A few minutes before I had taken some lemon-juice, which they brought me instead of the Citric acid solution I had called for, and now the symptoms seemed to begin to abate. The revolving panorama of sensations seemed to move more slowly, and each revolution appeared to bring me back, up, more to the light, and to myself again. I was now in bed, had walked from the kitchen, but did not feel the floor; with a feeling of relief, I said, "I shall get all right again." My hands now began to become cold, and then my feet, and I requested to be kept warm, and asked to have my hands rubbed. From this on I dozed in a dreamy, intoxicated manner; for a few seconds I lost myself in sleep, and then started up, seeming to have just completed another round, ascending the same spiral maelstrom which I had previously descended; still I had no correct idea of time; my hands were still cold, and I asked the attendants to chafe them, and then dropped into a doze, and after, as it seemed to me, half or three-quarters of an hour, I aroused and repeated the request. Those who were attending me say I was incessantly repeating the request. They put warm bricks to my feet, and I immediately dozed off again, and in less than half a minute asked them to put something warm to my foot, saying I was nearly frozen. I was reminded that it had already been done a moment before. I remembered the circumstance, but it seemed to have been at least two or three hours before. From this on the symptoms of intoxication gradually abated. After dark, at 7 o'clock, I could converse very readily, but time dragged very slowly. Toward morning I slept somewhat more naturally, but was nervous, and felt achings in my back and neck, and soreness of my sides, from vomiting. Next morning my appetite was poor, my head ached, and I felt dull all day, much the same, I imagine, as a man after a drunken spree. During the whole operation of the medecine the pupils of my eyes were natural, and after the first few minutes the color of my face was the same as usual. My pulse was at first rapid and strong, afterwards not so strong, but faster than common; my hands and feet were cool, from the end of the first to the middle of the third hour. At no time was there any disposition to spasmodic movements of any kind; the disposition was rather to lie inactive and quiet. I was about six hours under the influence of the drug, but the climax of the symptoms was reached in about an hour and a quarter, 61.
At 7 1/2 (two hours after last dose), noticed that he felt somewhat nervous and dizzy, and that he gave wrong change to a customer. A few minutes after, when out on an errand, felt an irresistible inclination to run; at the same time a sense of "contraction" of entire genito-urinary organs and great desire to urinate, with much strangury on passing water; also excessive dryness of fauces, coming on suddenly and with much thirst. On returning to his place of business, found it impossible to keep still, on account of an irresistible desire to be constantly on his feet. Within a few minutes spasms supervened, during which, at times, the flexors and extensors, at times the abductors and adductors of the whole body, were thrown into violent alternate action. While sitting in his chair, one minute his feet would beat a tattoo on the floor; and the next, his knees beat violently together. The spasms increased in severity and frequency for half an hour, and then gradually diminished, after emesis had been induced. Patient could by strong exercise of his will, restrain the spasms; but on fresh access they were much more violent. They were unaccompanied by pain; but after a time, he experienced a sense of weariness, as after the spasms of tetanus. Patient describes his mind as being "dull" and somewhat confused, but says that at no time did he lose consciousness in any degree. At no time any delirium. At but one time did he experience any mental disturbance, when he thought the vomitus was the head of a hippopotamus, and again a bunch of earthworms. He noticed that, if anything ludicrous were said or done, or any idea suggested, which required more than common exercise of the mind, the spasms were considerably intensified. The senses of seeing and feeling were somewhat diminished. Had tinnitus aurium. Conjunctivæ congested. Pulse, at 8.30, about 140, somewhat irregular in character and frequency, 59.
At 11 o'clock three persons had taken the liquid; on the expiration of two hours no sensible effect being produced, another dose was administered. The following are the phenomena which occurred in two of the gentlemen in the course of another half hour: Mr. A. K. resisted the action of the substance, and, as he said, experienced a slight oppression of the head and epigastrium; perhaps, also, the second repast which he took, all these gentlemen having already breakfasted, may have entirely neutralized the substance; an examination of the state of the pulse was neglected at the beginning of the experiment; its acceleration subsequently and the state of the pupil sufficiently demonstrated the effect of the substance. Mr. B., on whom the medicine first took effect, experienced a dryness of the throat and twitching of the limbs. The pulse was 96 in the minute, the face flushed. Mr. B. soon closed his eyes in order to collect himself; his ideas appeared to develop with extreme rapidity. At one moment he offered the singular phenomena of a double man ; he said he heard music on one side and conversation on the other; but this symptom did not continue. The music, which was performed by M. C., did not appear to act in any particular manner on the subject of experiment. At this time his pupils were much dilated. Interrogated as to his sensations, M. B. said they were very voluptuous. He felt particularly gay and happy; he wished to be alone in a quiet place; he had great repugnance to speak or to move; all countenances appear to him ridiculous. Until now Mr. B. had conversed; he moved about, and sometimes laughed violently, but all this actions resembled those of a person excited by alcoholic liquor. Suddenly he flung himself on a couch, refused to answer any more questions, and begged to be left alone, and not disturbed in the delicious sensations he experienced; he had spasmodic movements in his members, and in the diaphragm; he sighed, moaned, laughed, and wept by turns; the pulse 120 a minute, the face much flushed. The persons present began to feel uneasy, but were reassured on hearing Mr. B. repeat several times that he was happy and did not suffer. Dr. Cottereau watched the symptoms with the greatest minuteness. Mr. B. appeared the whole time to have the most agreeable symptoms proceeding from the epigastrium. All the phenomena presented were those of ecstasy; his features bespoke the greatest happiness; he could not find language to express his feelings; he would not wish to leave his present condition he is so happy. "How much I thank those who gave me that delicious drink." "Tell me what you feel," said one of the party, "I cannot express it." The influence of Mr. B.'s temperament was remarked throughout the experiment; he is possessed of great sensibility. In speaking of gay subjects, and pointing out lively and agreeable objects, his ideas harmonized instantly; he shouted with laughter, and evinced the greatest gayety. It was evident in this case that he was under the influence of the person who spoke to him, who could direct his ideas as he chose. Mr. B.'s sense of hearing had become extremely acute; he very distinctly heard what was said far off and in a low voice. In the midst of his ecstasy he neither lost consciousness of persons nor things. He replied correctly to all questions addressed to him, and knew those who surrounded him; but it was evidently painful to him to speak; he seemed to wish to enjoy his ecstasy undisturbed. At half past four, the pulse is 90; his ecstatic reveries continue; he is not conscious of anything relating to earth; his mind is perfectly free, and yet he has some delicious sensations. Mr. A. De G. proposes to give him an antidote and bring him back to his natural state; he says that the sensation of happiness will last a day or two. All whom I have interrogated, who have tried the experiment, have assured me that they have not felt any distress on the following days, but, on the contrary, a great sensation of happiness. M. D., the second subject, came to the meeting with the conviction that the substance could not produce any effect upon him, and with the firm intention to resist its action. No symptoms occurred for two hours and a half. The physiognomy of M. D. is grave. His character is serious, he rarely laughs, and devotes himself to metaphysical studies. Towards 2 o'clock his pulse was 100; his heart beat rapidly; several persons felt its pulsations. M. D., who until now had been very calm, and conversed with the company on various subjects, exclaimed the he was delirious; he began to sing, took out his pencil, and endeavoured to write down what he felt. Here are some fragments of his notes: "It is droll; my feelings are very vivid; the idea of being useful without fear, made me decide on taking this excellent drink. I am singular; they are laughing at me; I will not write any more." He threw away his paper; his delirium increased. The features of M. D. became very flexible; he laughs sardonically; the expression of his eye is animated, his face red, his pulse 120, his pupils dilated. Like Mr. B., he looks extremely happy; laughs, sings, gesticulates, and speaks with extreme volubility. His ideas follow one another with rapidity; it is the derangement of gay mania. But in the midst of this abundance, mobility, and variableness of ideas, those which form the basis of his studies predominate. These serious subjects are intermixed with pleasantries, bon mots, and puns. His tongue is dry; he spits frequently; his inferior extremities are slightly convulsed. This is a very singular delirium. Like Mr. B., his hearing and sight are very acute. He has no notion of time and space, but recognizes every one present, and replies correctly to questions put to him. He draws out his watch, and says with the greatest calmness, "It is such an hour." A multitude of ideas seem to fill his head, which he cannot express; he says, "You might take an ear, or an eye, if you could give me another tongue to make known what I feel." The pulse lowers; it is softer, and beat but 90 in a minute. The delirium continues; water is given to him; he exclaims; "That will make the frogs come, who will drink up the liquor." Incoherent sentences follow with inconceivable rapidity. The character of the delirium changes. He seats himself in a corner, closes his eyes, and talks to himself; he looks inspired. We surround him; he talks of sciences and gives definitions; then, like a man trying his powers, he pronounces a few words, and immediately recites some twenty very harmonious verses. Being under the impression that they were some well-known stanzas, we omitted to note them down; but on some one asking him if they were not by Victor Hugo, he replied, "No!" "They are then your own?" He gave a sign of assent. His countenance expressed gayety and satisfaction; his skin became very pallid; his pulse 100; his eyes closed, which he opened on the request of his brother; the pupils less dilated. He left off improvising to speak of foreign countries. We had been told that in these experiments the phenomena of second sight would be developed. M. D. described countries and cities which he had visited with as much correctness as though they were then before him; he perfectly recollected the peculiarities which he had noticed in his travels; in like manner he told us that he saw the stones of the Pantheon at Naples, raised, and drew a very practical picture of the scene which had struck him. But notwithstanding all our questions, he could not describe places with which he was unacquainted. He saw objects which had no existence. His brother inquired if he could look into his brain. "No, it is empty;" then he added: "How do you think I can see into your brain? It is veiled, there are objects between it and me." He then arose, saying, "All this a dream; this state of aberration has given a livelier impulse to my ideas, but has not added to my knowledge." The delirium, which for some time had been confined to a series of ideas, now became general again; he sang, laughed, and talked with great vivacity; he experienced no suffering, and said he was very happy. This state lasted for four hours and a half, when I left the party. The pulse at 90; the spitting frequent, and a constant desire to drink, 51.
One of our companions, Dr. ---, who had travelled much in the East, and was a determined opium eater, was the first to yield to its influence, having taken a much larger dose than the others; he saw stars in his plate, and the firmament in his soup dish; then turning his face to the wall, talked to himself, and burst into fits of laughter, with eyes flashing, and in the highest state of glee. I felt perfectly calm until dinner was over, although the pupils of the eyes of my other friends began to sparkle strangely and acquire a most singular turquoise tint. The tables being cleared, I (still having my senses) arranged myself comfortably with cushions on a divan to await the ecstasy. In a few minutes a general lethargy overcame me. My body appeared to dissolve and become transparent. I saw the hasheesh which I had eaten, distinctly within me, under the form of an emerald, form which thousands of little sparks were emitted; my eyelashes lengthened indefinitely, twisting themselves like golden threads around little ivory wheels, which whirled about with inconceivable rapidity. Around me were figures and scrolls of all colors, arabesques, and flowing forms in endless variety, which I can only compare to the variations of the kaleidoscope. I still occasionally saw my companions; but they appeared disfigured, half men, half plants; now with the pensive air of an ibis, standing on one leg, and again as ostriches, flapping their wings, and wearing so strange an appearance that I shook with laughter in my corner; and, as if to join in the buffoonery of the scene, I commenced tossing up my cushions, catching them as they descended, and twisting them round with all the dexterity of an Indian juggler. One of the gentlemen addressed a discourse to me in

Italian , which the hasheesh by its extraordinary power delivered to me in Spanish. Questions and answers most rational, and touched on different matters, such as the theatres and literature. The first stage drew towards, its termination. After some minutes I recovered my calmness, without headache, or any the symptoms which accompany the use of wine, and feeling very much astonished at what had occurred, when I again fell under the influence of the hasheesh. The vision this time was more complicated and extraordinary. Millions of butterflies, whose wings rustled like fans, flew about in the midst of a confused kind of light. Gigantic flowers, with crystal calyxes, enormous hollyhocks, gold and silver lilies arose, and burst into flowers around me with a crackling sound like that of bouquets of fireworks. My hearing was prodigiously developed. I heard the sound. of color; green, red, blue, and yellow sounds struck me with perfect distinctness. A glass upset, the creaking of a chair, or word spoken, however low, vibrated and resounded like rolling thunder; my own voice appeared so loud that I dared not speak for fear of throwing down the walls or bursting like a bomb; more than five hundred clocks chimed the hour with their flutelike voices. Every object gave forth gave forth a note of the harmonica or Æolian harp. I swam in an ocean of sound, wherein some passages of the

Lucia an Barbiere floated like little isles of light. Never before had I bathed in such beatitude; I was so encircled by its waves, so transported from all things earthly, so lost to self, that odious, ever-present witness, that I comprehended for the first time what might be the existence of elementary spirits and angels, and souls released from this mortal coil. I was as a sponge in the midst of the sea; every instant waves of happiness washed over me, entering and departing through the pores; for I had become permeable, and even to the smallest capillary vessel my whole being was filled with the color of the fantastic medium in which I was plunged. Sounds, perfumes and light reached me by multitudes of beams, delicate as a hair, through which I heard the magnetic current pass. According to my calculation this state must have lasted for three hundred years, for the sensations succeeded each other so numerously and powerfully that the real appreciation of time was impossible. When the attack was over, I perceived that it had lasted a quarter of an hour. What is very curious in the intoxicating effect of the hasheesh is that it is not continuous; it comes and goes suddenly, raises you to heaven and places you again on earth, without any gradual transition; like madness, it has its lucid intervals. A third attack, the last and strangest, terminated my Oriental soiree. In this my sight was doubled. Two images of each object were reflected on my retina, and produced a complete symmetry; but soon, the magic paste being entirely digested, acted with more power on my brain, and I became completely mad for the space of an hour. All kinds of Pantagruelic dreams passed through my fancy; goat-suckers, storks, striped geese, unicorns, griffins, nightmares, all the menageries of monstrous dreams, trotted, jumped, flew, or glided through the room. These wore horns terminating in foliage, webbed hands; whimisical beings, with the feet of the arm-chair for legs, and dial-plates for eyeballs; enormous noses dancing the Cachuca, mounted on chickens' legs. For myself, I imagined I was the paroquet of the Queen of Sheba, and imitated, to the best of my ability, the voice and cries of that interesting bird. The visions became so grotesque that I was seized with a desire to sketch them, which I did in five minutes, with inconceivable rapidity, on the backs of letters, cards, or any pieces of paper on which I could lay my hands. One of them is the portrait of Dr. ---, as he appeared to me seated at the piano, dressed as a Turk, with a sun painted on the back of his vest. The notes are represented escaping from the instrument in the form of guns ans spirals, capriciously intertwisted. Another sketch bears this inscription; "An animal of hereafter." It represents a living locomotive, with a swan's neck terminating in the jaws of a serpent, whence issue jets of smoke, with two monstrous paws composed of wheels and pulleys; each pair of paws has a pair of wings, and on the tail of the animal is seated the Mercury of the ancients, who is confessing himself to be conquered, notwithstanding his heels. Thanks to hasheesh, I have painted from nature the portrait of a goblin. Even now I fancy I hear them whining and mowing at night in my old buffet, 28.

For two hours no results at all were experienced. At this time a dryness seemed to commence at a particular spot in the throat, and a feeling of warmth throughout the abdomen. These were not the results of disordered sensation, for a clammy mucus soon began to be secreted, though the huskiness of the throat still remained. Up to this time there was not the slightest excitement or confusion of thought. Suddenly, however, an idea, having no connection with the train of thought passing in the mind at the time, appeared, as though suggested by another person, and then was gone again as suddenly as it came, leaving upon the mind the same feeling as when one escapes from a dream or a deep revery. The same thing was repeated two or three times, at intervals rapidly diminishing in length. Even now I can hardly believe but it was the result of strained attentions to my physical sensations, for the gentle warmth of the abdomen was rapidly becoming a burning heat; still, however, not by any means unpleasant, and the dryness of the throat extended to the tongue. I had taken this drug with great skepticism as to its reputed action, or at any rate, that it was greatly exaggerated, and I accordingly made up my mind not to be "caught napping" in this way again, and to keep careful watch over my thoughts. But while enforcing this resolution, as I supposed, I found myself, to my own astonishment, waking from a revery longer and more profound than any previous. From skepticism to the fullest belief of all I had read, was but a step. Its effects so far surpassed anything which words can convey, that I began to think I was on the verge of narcotic poison; yet, strange to say, there was not the slightest feeling of inquietude on that account. I resolved to walk into the street. While rising from the chair, another lucid interval showed that another dream had come and gone. While passing through the door, I was aware of having wandered again, but how or when I had permitted myself to fall into the revery, I was perfectly unconscious, and knew only that it seemed to have lasted an interminable length of time. These singular attacks of mental disturbance recurred often, and lasted longer, till the lucid interval between them was reduced to a mere instant's conscious duration of thought. This condition came on so rapidly, that in less than fifteen minutes from the time of my being aware of the first mental disturbance, the power of controlling the thoughts was almost completely lost. All ideas of time and space were especially bewildered, and I realized completely for the first time the idea of some metaphysicians, that time, properly speaking, has no existence except in connection with a succession of mental operations or sensations. The most trivial circumstance, the slightest noise, gave rise to trains of thought, which went bounding from subject to subject, completely emancipated from the rules which ordinarily govern mental operations, till suddenly some other circumstance would give an entirely new direction to them, and the last series of imaginations would seem to have lasted from eternity, even while the eye was fixed upon the clock, the hand of which had not perceptibly moved.
Now a phenomenon still more singular, began to exhibit itself. I felt that, in spite of all exertions, I was beginning to receive the suggestions of a disordered fancy for real objective facts. Intellectually, I know that the spinal column could not be a barometer, in which mercury had usurped the place of the spinal cord. Yet in another sense, over which the operations of the intellect were entirely powerless, I felt that it was a barometer. An unpleasant sensation in the lumbar region suggested the idea of a heavy column of mercury pressing upon, it, and at the time, and under the circumstances, the transition to the idea of a barometer was easy and natural. There was no balancing of arguments in the arrival at this conclusion; there was no half-way period of doubt and uncertainty, to emerge into full credence. At the instant the idea occurred at all, it commanded the assent with the same fulness as when in perfect mental health does the idea of our own existence. The thought certainly occurred that it was a delusion, but it made no more impression than the suggestion would, that the sense of sight was a figment of the brain, and objects seen had no existence, except in the imagination. This belief was not a transient one; it was the first hallucination to appear, and continued with varying degrees of intensity, as the thoughts were more or less occupied with other objects, till all others had disappeared. The belief in the reality of the vision was never for an instant absent; it pervaded the whole being, and was often the point on which the thoughts turned seemingly for a long time.
The painful attempt to regulate these disturbed states of consciousness, was soon given up, and half involuntarily, half by a species of moral compulsion, the whole psychical nature surrendered itself without further struggle, to the fullest and most complete belief in the actual existence of a thousand hallucinations. During this time the thoughts were becoming more and more disordered; ideas, between which, apparently, there was not the slightest connection, thrust themselves in, till finally their rapid occurrence, and the loss of that sense of governing the mind which we ordinarily possess, induced the belief that I was the victim of diabolical agency; that some terrible demon had taken possession of my whole intellectual being, and identified himself with every thought, in the same way that a man might direct the physical movements of a child. The feeling of utter powerlessness to check the wild current of thought was complete, and there was a sensation as though, if there had been the ability, the will could not be exercised. The firmest intentions were forgotten in an instant. There seemed to be no difference between the idea and the expression of it in words. A moment was long enough to forget whether it had been expressed or not. The sound of persons whispering in the room, brought with it the belief that they were laying some plot. It was not a vague suspicion that they were intending some injury, such as whispers and glances might excite in any one, but everything they had said, the particulars of the whole plot, were present, with the same vividness and overpowering conviction as they always are in true hallucinations. The fantasia had now arrived at its height. It was an hour and a half since the first sensation of excitement and wandering commenced. About the same time passed before it had completely subsided. The mental phenomena in this stage were as remarkable as while the effects were coming on. One after another the delusions disappeared as rapidly as they came; not by any exercise of the gradually returning regularity of thought, but suddenly, with a bound, so that it was surprising to have believed a moment before what now appeared so absurd, 52.
Majoun produces effects like , except that they last for many hours. Some cry, some laugh, some fall into drowsy listlessness; some are rendered talkative and funny. They see visions, imagine themselves reduced to poverty, or become emperors and commanders of armies, the natural disposition predominating in the derangement. Men under its influence were pointed out to me in the streets. They walked along with fixed eye, heedless of all around them. Some take it daily in small quantities, producing, as one of them described it, "a comfortable state of mind," without appearing to impair the general health. Under its influence the mouth is parched; it is not in their power to spit; their eyes become red and small; they are ravenous for food. A young English clergyman took some

Majoun as a sweetmeat. Some hours passed without any visible effects, when a musician, who had the faculty of strangely distorting his features, came in dressed as a mummer. The clergyman took him for the devil, and a most laughable scene ensued. Next morning, on inquiries after his health, he said he had slept soundly and agreeable, "as the windows and doors were bolted." Later in the day the effect disappeared entirely, and he seemed to recollect the circumstances with a confused pleasure, describing various things that had never happened. In my case I fancied my head an inverted pendulum, which it cost me a great deal of labor to keep straight, when I could resist no longer, and let it go, and it went back as if a blow had been discharged. I struggled against each relapse out of a sense of politeness towards the company, of which I did not fail to inform them, notwithstanding their roars of laughter. The back of my neck was a pivot; there was a heavy upper weight on the top of my head, and the pendulum was swinging between my legs; but the pendulum was attracted upwards to the table, and I had to struggle to keep it down by keeping my head up. The swinging fit was accompanied by bursts of laughter. I derived great pleasure from allowing my head to go back; but the laughter was unlike any mortal merriment; it seemed as never to end, and to press me, and to lead up to a mountain-top. When any one put his hand behind my head, fearing the effect of the jerks, ot that I should throw the chair over, I was very much annoyed, because it disturbed, as I said, "the isochronism of the oscillations." I afterwards saw a similar effect produced on a European who did not know what he had taken. He was constantly throwing back his head and looking at the ceiling, and exhibited no other symptom, which only made this the more ludicrous. After keeping the party for four hours in a state of continual convulsion, I became irresistibly drowsy, and was moved away to bed. This operation sickened me, and brought on a slight vomiting. The instant I was in bed I fell asleep, and slept without intermission for nine hours; and then awoke, perfectly recovered and fresh, with a feeling of lightness, and in high spirits. One of the most remarkable effects was that it seemed to lay bare your inmost thoughts, and to present a mirror on which was reflected every act of your life, and that you were constrained to reveal and confess it all. One describes the effects on a party thus: "We were eight, and seven took to laughing, and one to crying, and the more he cried the more we laughed, and the more we laughed the more he cried, and so we spent the night, and in the morning we went to bed." The master of a Portuguese vessel to whom it was given without his being aware of its nature, thought himself bewitched, and his crew were on the point of securing him as deranged. He saw a ship stranded on the bar, and ordered out his boats to her assistance; he then saw the devil cooking in the caboose, and with the demeanor of an insane person, was all the while reasoning on the evidences of his insanity, 64.

At 6.58 P.M. I took 0.6 gram of Egyptian Hasheesh, and half an hour after 0.4 gram in addition. Before taking, pulse 72, at 7.10, pulse 80. First sensation, pendulum-like oscillations in the head. 7.20, pulse 84; a feeling of flow of blood towards the upper part of head, and a strange sensation of contraction, and a kind of collapse within myself; the pendulum-like oscillations in the head increasing. 7.40, an irresistible inclination to laugh, loud laughter, without any particular cause, tendency to rapid movements; pulse 84. I took several quick turns up and down the room, and then sat down. 7.55, a feeling of heat and pricking in the head, sensation of coldness and numbness in the extremities, which are cold to the touch, and an indefinite feeling of melancholy and uneasiness; occasional starts, without any visible cause, like those of electric shocks; pulse 96. Playing on the piano, performed by one of those present, produced a magical effect; it seemed as if the sounds were wafted from a great distance, that every sound had its peculiar life, a special fulness and expressiveness; the sounds seemed to come with fearful rapidity from an endless distance, and to be reflected immediately in the ear; in a word, an ordinary performance seemed equal to that of some eminent pianist, and I thought myself a refined and profound connoisseur, calmly enjoying the playing of some distinguished musician. 8.10, pulse 104, full; the sensation of heat in the head and pricking in the temples increased; I seemed to hear a loud noise, like that of a waterfall; suddenly the nature of the noise changed, and it seemed to proceed from a number of vehicles driving in the street; then again the noise became like what is heard at the close of a performance at a theatre, the rumbling of vehicles, shouts of men, all combining into one general roar; these sounds suddenly disappeared, and give place to the booming of cannon, and reports of guns at a manœuvre. I cut these sensations short by the force of my will, and took a quick turn in the room. I felt a violent thirst. After drinking a glass of water, I sat down on the sofa, and closed my eyes at 8.30. Scarcely had I done so, when I felt a remarkable buoyancy and flexibility in all my body; before my eyes appeared a whole series of variously-tinted luminous figures, rapidly vanishing; their shapes being in the highest degree undefined; then appeared a row of more or less well-defined shapes. The most varied and most luxuriant pictures of nature ever seen by me in reality or in drawings, transported me into a magical world; I thought I was in some virgin forests of South America, then in some cities of Switzerland, and then amidst the ocean, and again amongst heaps of ice and snow, etc. An entire series of reminiscences of childhood, the faces of friends and acquaintances, and the faces (known to me by portraits) of authors, savants, poets, politicians, etc., all these became blended in my head, presenting a kind of phantasmagoria, and the most variegated picture. All these sensations passed rapidly and distinctly before me and I felt so enraptured that I begged to be allowed to plunge into this fantastic world, and to leave off dictating my feelings. This state lasted till 9.20. During this time those who were present observed that my face was hot, red, and moist; pulse 108. On my recovery, I got up with the intention of walking across the room, but noticed that my gait was unsteady, and that I was swerving to the left, and that the upper and lower extremities of my left side were benumbed. I drank a little water and wine. At 9.45 I experienced sharp and occasionally shooting pains in the loins and in the region of the kidneys. These pains, as well as a feeling of nausea, made my state very uncomfortable; I endeavored to induce vomiting by tickling the root of the tongue, but did not succeed. It was nearly midnight when I sat down to supper, and ate with a great appetite. At 1 A.M. I went to bed, and my first sensation was that I was flying from an enormous rock into a fearful and dark abyss. I fell asleep at once, and slept very soundly. It was 11.30 A.M. when I awoke, with a feeling of heaviness in the head, with full remembrance of the previous day, and a sensation of emptiness and incapacity for thought. Whatever I did appeared endlessly long; my words, and the conversation of others, seemed too prolonged, whereas in reality it appeared that I spoke as usual. I went out into the street to take an airing, but the farther I went the more it seemed to me that I was walking a very long time, and that the houses and people were all flying away from me. Making an effort over myself, I took the first vehicle and drove back home. On my arrival, I at once lay down and slept till evening. On awaking I felt much livelier. The urine which I had collected during the experiment had a peculiar odor, something like that of Cannabis indica. During the day, according to my own observation, as well as that of others, my face was exceedingly pale, the pupils dilated, the expression that of great illness. It was only on the next day that I was able to take to my ordinary occupations, 63.
Great weight about the head, followed by irresistible bursts of laughter, during which, however, perfectly conscious of all that he was doing, and felt, and thought. He says: "I was astonished by the crowd of brilliant and novel fancies and ideas that rushed through my brain, returning over and over again. Imagination and perception were developed to their fullest extent. All the principal incidents of my life passed before me like a flash. This condition of mind lasted two hours. Dreams and reveries of the most pleasing character filled this extraordinary tension of the intellectual faculties. Then came a deep calm sleep, which terminated this singular fit or mental hallucinations, 50.
They saw several lunatics in Cairao Hospital who had lost their reason from the use of Hasheesh, 65. [900.]
They were without provocation seized with a paroxysm of frenzy, and killed and wounded several on board the ship, 47.
Loss of sense of existence of is own body; he seemed suspended in the air; transformed into a cylinder or sphere; he seemed to see a yellow color like the color of chromate of lead over everything, changing to violet and green, 53.
Hallucinations, 58.
Excited, loquacious, and gay, 57.
Involuntary cries, 54.
Very vivacious talking was the first symptom, 53.
Incoherent speech, 55.
Constant talking and laughing, 56.
Incoherent loquacity, 56.
Loss of memory, 55. [910.]
The action was powerfully narcotic; he felt all the symptoms of intoxication, 48.
Attacks of lethargy, with an unconscious stage, 53.
Loss of consciousness of the centre of gravity, and seeming as if on the point of falling, 54.

HEAD

The peculiar sensation of giddiness produced by it is increased by walking about, and subsides during rest, 46.
Whirling in the head, 53.
Heaviness of the head, 53, 57, 58.
Tension and heaviness of the head, 53.
Tension in the head, 54.
Sensation of tension in the brain, 54, 57.
Pressure in the temples, 58.

EYE. [920.]

Eyes brilliant (after one hour), 55.
Eyes injected, 53, 55, 58.
Divergent squint, 53.
Prickling in the margins of the lids, 57.
Lachrymation, 55, 54, 58.
Conjunctivitis, 49.
Conjunctiva red, 54, 57.
Pupils dilated (after one hour), 55, 57, 58.
Vision confused, 54, 36.

FACE

Face congested, 56. [930.]
The face became red, with efforts to vomit, 53.
Trembling of the lips, 54.
Constriction of the jaws, 58.
It seemed to him as if he must forcibly compress the jaws, 54.

MOUTH

Tongue dry, 54.
Tongue dry, covered with dry mucus, 53.
Mouth dry, 53, 58.
Dryness of the mouth and throat, 54.

THROAT

Dryness of the throat, 53, 55 , etc.
Sensation of devouring fire in the pharynx and œsophagus, 53. [940.]
Burning in the throat on inspiring air, 53.

STOMACH

Nausea, 53.
Nausea and efforts to vomit after eating, 56.

STOOL

Next day bowels did not act, 62.

RESPIRATORY ORGANS

Respiration rapid, 53.
Dyspnœa, 53.

CHEST

Sensation of constriction in the chest, 54.

HEART AND PULSE

Palpitation, 54, 57.
Intense palpitation of the heart, 53 . Pulse 100 (before taking); 140 (after one hour); 92 (after three hours), 56. [950.]
Pulse 80, regular (before taking); became very rapid, 130, and irregular; afterwards small, contracted, 53.
Pulse 75 (before taking); ran up to 120, became small and irregular, 54.
Pulse 70 and regular (on taking); 115 (after one hour), 55.
Pulse 78, regular (before taking); afterwards 120, 57.
Pulse 72 (before taking); rose to 125, and became irregular, 58.

NECK AND BACK

Rigidity of the nape of the neck, 54.
Beating in the nape of the neck, 57.

EXTREMITIES

Contractions of the arms and legs, 53.
Sensation of stiffness in the limbs, 53.
Trembling of the arms, 54. [960.]
Incoordination of the movements of the lower limbs, 53.
Involuntary contractions of the tendons of the feet, 53.

GENERALITIES

Trembling on moving either the hands or feet, 53.
Muscular feebleness, 52, 55, 58.
General lassitude, 57.

FEVER

Frequent general shuddering, 53.
Extremities cold, 53, 54 , etc.
Chilliness in the limbs, 54.
Pyrexia, 49.
Skin dry and hot, 53. [970.]
Heat of the face, 54.

APPENDIX: CANNABIS INDICA The editor has deemed it expedient to retain the natural grouping and sequence of the following affects, recorded by Dr. Edgar Holden in his work on the sphygmograph (Philadelphia, 1874), thus preserving the association of some general symptoms with the condition of the pulse.

9.15 P.M. Feeling vigorous and well. First tracing normal, smooth, and even (not recorded), 5 grains taken.

9.35. A feeling of lightness perceptible. (Tracing 181.) Two records, at 0° and 2 1/2°. [These degrees refer to the pressure of the instrument on the artery, regulated at will; 0° equals 100 grammes; 2 1/2° equals 186 grammes; 5° equals 690 grammes.] *Diminished frequency.

10 P.M. Nervous and excited. (Tracing 182.) Two recorda at 4 1/2°. Oscillation singularly marked; tension increased; amplitude and frequency diminished.

10.05 P.M. Sudden freedom from any unusual feeling. (Tracing 183.) Two records showing a sudden return of, or rather approach to, a normal condition.

10.15 P.M. 7 grains more.

10.40 P.M. Excited. (Tracing 184.) Record at 2 1/2° shows capillary resistance and wave of recoil.

11.45 P.M. (Tracing 185.) Two records at 2 1/2° and 0° gave similar results, indicating venous impletion. Frequency increased.

11.50 P.M. Drowsy and calm. (Tracing 186.) Record at 2 1/2°.

11.55 P.M. (Tracing 187.) Record at 2 1/2°, both the latter exhibit impaired propulsive power of the heart.

Total amount, 12 grains within two hours.

November 2d, 1872, 9.15 P.M. 30 drops.

9.15 P.M. Beginning to feel an indefinable sensation of comfort. 9.20, 9.25, and 9.45 P.M. (Tracing 188.) Records all taken at the same pressure. At the latter hour the amplitude began to show increase of tension.

9.45 P.M. 40 drops more.

10 P.M. Slightly exhilarated. 10.15. Somewhat drowsy. Tracings at 9.50, 10 (tracing 189), and 10.15 P.M. (tracing 190) exhibit only increase of tension, with, at the latter hour, diminished frequency equal to ten beats.

10.20 and 10.25 P.M. (Tracing 191.) Tension and frequency variable.

10.25 P.M. All effects apparently gone. 40 drops more.

10.45 P.M. Again exhilarated. (Tracing 192.) Records exhibit great increase of arterial tension.

11 P.M. drowsy, but not pleasantly so, nor as if from desire to sleep. (Tracing 193.) Frequency greatly increased, equal to thirty beats and falling in five minutes as many; tension less.

11.05 P.M. (Tracing 194.) Record shows increased cardiac excitement at beginning of systole, with some obstruction, either proximate or distal.

Total amount, 110 drops.

November 5th, 1872, 9 P.M. Feeling well. 100 drops. Tracing normal.

9.10 P.M. (Tracing 195.) Amplitude, and therefore tension increased, frequency steadily diminishing till 9. 45. Tracings at 9.30, 9.45.

10 P.M. No effects experienced. 120 drops more.

10.10 P.M. (Tracing 196.) Diminished tension and the oscillation of cerebro-spinal implication. This tracing, by accident in transfer, fails to show this except in the first wave.

10.15 P.M. Same.

10.35 P.M. (Tracing 197.) Obstruction either proximate or remote.

10.40. (Similar to tracing 195.) Diminishing obstruction.

10.45 P.M. Very little effect. 200 drops more.

11.15 P.M. (Tracing 198.) Diminished tension and evident sedation, but frequency slightly increased.

11.18 P.M. No effect whatever. Same.

Total amount taken, 420 drops!

November 9th, 1872, 9.50 P.M. Feeling not well as usual, owing to overwork; otherwise all right. 12 grains of fresh extract taken.

10.15 P.M. A little nauseated and eyes heavy.

10 and 10.15 P.M. Tracings showed diminishing frequency and tension, and not feeling well a pressure of 0° was found to be the best for observation, instead of 2 1/2° as heretofore.

10.30 P.M. Feeling comfortable and well. (Tracing 199.) Frequency still less; pulse small, but normal, showing sedation.

10.45. Effect passing off; pulse somewhat excited. 14 grains more taken.

11.25. A few minutes exhilarated, then very drowsy, but no impairment of will.

11.25 and 11.40 P.M. (Tracings 200 and 201.) Records exhibited great weakness of cardiac power, it being difficult to obtain them even at 0°.

11.45 P.M. Drowsiness gone, and feel free from any effect. 11.45, 11.48, and 11.50 P.M. (Tracing 202.) The records taken showed a sudden decrease of frequency and tension, and equally sudden increase.

12.50. Terrific excitement, twitchings, dreams, etc.; sensations as of swelling of the head, painful insomnia and feeling of desperate recklessness.

November 10th. (Tracings taken the day following the use of the drug.)

7.50 A.M. Peculiar action of medicine still evident, head swollen, confusion of ideas, etc. Tracings small, and showing weak heart.

12.30 M. Have been asleep and feel better; influence passing off. (Tracing 203.) Same, but showing also the slight dicrotism of capillary dilatation.

Total amount taken, 26 grains. Time, two hours and forty minutes.

SYNOPSIS OF EFFECTS. First Experiment.

-5 grains, 9.15. After twenty minutes, diminished frequency; after forty-five minutes, marked cerebral disturbance, exhibited in oscillation and minimum amplitude and frequency, with increased tension.

Maximum effect of first dose in forty-five minutes . In fifty minutes sudden cessation of effect.

Seven grains, 10.15.

Maximum effect of second dose in thirty minutes . In thirty-five minutes, capillary disturbance and increased tension, with increased frequency. In forty minutes, beginning of impairment of cardic impulse, continuing two hours from administration of remedy.

Second Experiment.

-30 drops of tr., 9.15 P.M. In thirty minutes increased tension.

Forty drops more, 9.45. In sixty minutes from first dose, diminished frequency; arterial tension great. In one hour and ten minutes, irregularity in tension and frequency, with increase in prominence of waves, showing cerebro-spinal stimulation.

Forty drops more, 10.25. In one hour and forty-five minutes, great increase of frequency, equal to thirty beats; falling as many in five minutes more, with reduced tension. In one hour and fifty minutes from first dose, evidences of increased irritability of the heart, with some obstruction, either proximate or remote.

Maximum effect of tension in thirty-five minutes; of irritation in thirty-five minutes; of frequency in one hour forty-five minutes; of diminished power , one hour five minutes; of some obstruction to circulation, one hour forty-five minutes.

First Experiment.

-5 grains, 9.15. In twenty minutes, lightness. In forty-five minutes, nervousness and excitement. In fifty minutes, sudden freedom from any effect.

Seven grains, 10.15. In twenty-five minutes, excitement. In ninety-five minutes, drowsiness and calm.

Maximum effect , from first dose, maximum of excitement in forty-five minutes; from second, maximum of excitement in twenty-five minutes; maximum of sedative effect in twelve minutes.

Second Experiment.

-30 drops of tr., 9.15 P.M. In thirty minutes quiet. In forty-five minutes, exhilaration. In one hour, drowsiness.

Forty drops more, 9.45. In twenty minutes after second dose, new excitement.

Forty drops again, at 10.25. In thirty-five minutes, drowsiness.

Maximum effect of exhilaration in this experiment forty-five minutes from first dose; maximum of drowsiness, in one hour; of exhilaration after second dose, in twenty minutes; of drowsiness, in thirty-five minutes.

Synopsis of the two later experiments with Cannabis Indica need not be given. It may be briefly said of them that the doses were large and repeated at nearly one hour intervals. The effect was in the first of these apparent in the tracing in ten minutes, and a steady diminution of frequency resulted, until in forty-five minutes there occurred evidence of implication of the nervous system. In thirty-five minutes after the second dose there appeared evidence of some obstruction to circulation, either near the heart or in the capillaries, and after 420 drops had been taken, the arterial tension was greatly reduced, with corresponding increase of the venous pressure, and marked sedation, just two hours and fifteen minutes from the first dose, and thirty from the last and largest.

Finally, sudden cessation of effect.

In the last experiment detailed, in which a fresh alcoholic extract was again used, the following facts were noticed.

First. Tracings abnormal from malaise at the beginning became normal in forty minutes, with marked sedation and diminished frequency. In fifty-five minutes began the stage of exhilaration, at which time a larger dose was taken. After fifty-five minutes the heart's impulsive power was evidently weakened, and shortly after began a vacillation, alike of equilibrium, of pressure, and of weakness.

In one hour and forty-five minutes the nervous system was broken down by the excitement of reaction, a state lasting three hours.

MIND

HEAD

EYE

EAR

NOSE

FACE

MOUTH

THROAT

STOMACH

ABDOMEN

RECTUM AND ANUS

STOOL

URINARY ORGANS

SEXUAL ORGANS

RESPIRATORY ORGANS

CHEST

HEART AND PULSE

NECK AND BACK

EXTREMITIES IN GENERAL

UPPER EXTREMITIES

LOWER EXTREMITIES

GENERAL SYMPTOMS

SKIN

SLEEP AND DREAMS

FEVER

CONDITIONS

MIND

HEAD

EYE. [920.]

FACE

MOUTH

THROAT

STOMACH

STOOL

RESPIRATORY ORGANS

CHEST

HEART AND PULSE

NECK AND BACK

EXTREMITIES

GENERALITIES

FEVER

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